¿Qué hora es?

怎麼還那麼痛

2010-04-07T00:02:00.002+08:00

看了這video,好hurt的感覺..還是依然為他落淚..
偉對我很好..但怎樣也忘不了園..他做了那麼多令我傷心的事,我還是為他流著淚..

偉,對不起,我心中,還是有他..

雖不再想念他,但還是會被勾起的回憶哭..
感情放得太深..傷得太重..

加油..

-無-

2010-03-02T12:53:00.006+08:00

好氣人。
園回鄉下過新年時，去說我偷吃，才分手的。。
他堂姐佩莉來諷刺我，我才知這事的。。
算了啦，讓他去吧。。當初很氣，但現在算了啦，別跟廢人一班見識。。

見了ken的哥，口好花，和我還可以談啦，但和ken較好談。。

偉很忙。。太忙了。。沒時間陪我。。
也沒空讓我下去找他。。

已一個月沒見了。。還要等多一兩個月才能再見。。
他故意要我減肥。。我本來就在減著。。
05教我一招跟偉說。。
我說了

我：你要我減肥？
偉：恩
我：那你來新加坡看著我，別讓我偷嬾減肥
偉：不要
我：為何？
偉：我去那裏，死了。。怎樣找吃？做啥工？

那天。。
偉：我怕看見你家人。。他們問起我做啥工，怎回答？

這些東西。。就是我們的最大阻礙。。
縂有一天，我們倆必分。。
但我不捨得。。 ~>.<~

他說我：怎麽你跟我聊電話那麽斯文，出來又粗魯！以後你要對我斯文，眼神也要斯文！

~>.<~

還說要教我煮/掃地/抹地。。要訓練好老婆 ~>.<~ 慘咯我。。
吃得好飽。。回去做工咯！

該不該繼續。。

2010-02-18T13:05:00.006+08:00

我與偉，該不該再走下去？

我不懂。我要分，他不肯，我自己也不捨得。。
彬和我聊很多了昨夜，他說看見偉，很像年輕時的自己。。

彬不錯哦 ^^可惜可惜~ @@

我和偉，本來就不配，自己也清楚。最近他很煩，也不知啥事。
該是工作問題吧。。我自己也很煩，又是個新年了，自己沒啥成就，又老一嵗了，不習慣單身的我，怕嫁不出去。我不怕人笑我，我敢承認自己擔心嫁不出。
獨生女，自己是很難一個人付起養雙父母的責任，所以我很怕自己一個走下去。。

讀了zuzu o0o 的blog，心裏也不盡想起“他”。。媽看見他的照片在我電腦wallpaper就一直罵我苯蛋。。
說人家絕情我卻還忘不了。。我便換了照片，放我們的黃狗與熊熊的照片。。

ken介紹了他哥給我認識。。大我一嵗。。在新加坡做工。。跟ken一樣，很會説話，口很花。。跟我很好聊。。ken一直要撮合我們。。我沒興趣。。做朋友ok啦。。暫時不想其他的。。跟偉很多問題了，不想又多個東西煩。。

好悶的生活。。吃飽了~回去工作了~

2010-02-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

1st time usin hp to blog.test test @@v

林義說得對..

2010-02-10T12:37:00.009+08:00

29/01 下巴生找偉。。路上,和林義信息。。最後他打電話來聊。。

問起我與園的事
他說
他不愛你了，才會這樣對你
他不愛你但你有新男友，他氣，因他下不了台

林義說得對
他就是大男人，愛面子，啥都要贏
林義這句話，我真叫自己醒了吧。

我才了解自己怎麽一直不死心
最令人失望的不是他的背叛，不是他說過的一切
而是他那顆心

不愛我了，再執著也是無用
最近真的非常想念他
但每次想起，都跟自己說，他的心死了，我也別賴著了吧。。

對他又愛又恨
好煩啊

分開的第5個月了
他也該忘了我了吧
我還為沒良心的他哭啥？

打掃除時，丟了他的相片，心好痛。。
ken說的，過去就讓他過去。。

30/01
下午和偉去看電影
晚上又和大家一起看電影
偉要瘋了，每次都得陪我看電影 @@
他傢出現了只好大的蜻蜓！
就在門前的燈，害我不敢出門，在那裏哭。。

他抱著我陪我走出去。。
malu死了 -_____-"
死胖子還故意嚇我，喊說 “飛下來了！”
害我哭著亂跑。。

31/01
與偉和05去看營火蟲
好漂亮！但也被蚊子叮 -____-"
地點是k.selangor
靠近偉的家鄉
一路上看，和園的家鄉路太像了，搞到我心情亂

看完后，我們3人去吃海鮮
偉還記得，我只吃大蝦，小的我不愛吃
吃飽后他問我 “怎樣？蝦夠大嗎？”
^^細心哦

他說下次帶我回家鄉見媽媽
我問他是在開玩笑還是當真
他說真
我是不想去的但他那麽有心，我有點感動，就答應他了
畢竟，你夠愛一個人，才會想帶他回去見家人

最近都睡不好
心好煩
越來越煩
忘不了園，又和偉有小問題
好幾次差點就開口說分手了
但說不出口
心痛，放不開

怎麽到這年齡還要煩這些？
好討厭

不流泪的机场

2010-02-10T12:37:00.001+08:00

地面灯火像是星光闪耀　什么地方等着我降落停靠
走过一扇大门　一座桥　什么笑容值得我凝住心跳

往前跑的人都需要　摆脱遗憾的药
回到教堂祈祷　那一秒

＃爱是　三万里程的孤单
　闪着等待的泪光　眺望可能的远方
　爱是（爱知道）　再远都在你身旁
　心疼了解的目光　不流泪的机场

＊累计（划下）或多或少的伤　或真或假的谎
　只求不忘了我最真的模样　最真的微笑

红灯闪烁停驻的街道　蓝天绿叶的熟悉不同面貌
一张床一个停靠　黑夜白昼颠倒　谁能解读脸上的微笑

Repeat ＃,＊

短暂的来回奔跑　不曾解开的背包
我参与的人生太潦草
快乐常在门外绕　太多陌生的夜晚让我困扰
若你能了解　我会向你怀里靠

Repeat ＃,＊

説好的幸福呢

2010-01-15T13:03:00.005+08:00

每當聽見這歌，又想起你了
不是説好不再寫關於你的事了嗎？

我忍不住。
我依然愛你
依然想你
不管你對我做了啥
說了啥
我還是忘不了你

四個月了。。你已不屬於我四個月了。。

開心的情景還是那麽清晰
你的笑容
我最愛的那張臉
你的歌聲
我還依戀
沒了你
我失去了目標
迷失了方向

要幾時才能忘了你？

我現在對自己沒信心了
偉說要帶我回去見他家人
我怕
我不懂我怕啥
我只懂我怕
但我當時卻很想見你家人
很期待見你家人
怎麽現在會這樣？

最近很多人說我變了
我也懂
安靜了許多
沒那麽開朗了
怎麽了
因爲你嗎？
或是偉嗎？

我不懂。
心煩
生活一團亂

想念—偉

再兩星期。。

期待。。

2010-01-14T13:36:00.000+08:00

问:你会不会为了心爱的人去摘采一朵花在极高悬崖上的花？
但你知道你一定会跌死，
那么你还会愿意为心爱的人牺牲吗？

如果是你一定会说愿意吧？
为了心爱的人死算不了什么？
大部分的都愿意为他/她而死。

诺是我，我会对我的她说

对不起我做不到。（为什么）
为什么我不上悬崖摘那朵花

其实我只是想留下我的双眼

好可以天天看见你那灿烂的笑容

当你不开心的时候我的耳朵可以听你发牢骚

当你心情好时我也可以陪你聊聊

当你生气了我的脚可以跑去买你最爱的巧克力回来哄你开心

当你冷的时候我的手臂还可以拥抱着你

但如果有一天你找到了一个男人

你喜欢他还多过我的时候

我就会爬山悬崖为你摘那朵花...

現在48不爽

2010-01-08T11:33:00.004+08:00

kenyee跟我說，外面有人傳，說我不愛偉，只是玩他罷了。。

說我利用他，只是爲了下kl時，有地方住。。

那請問那個sohai，我這裡沒家？須去醬遠住人家？
我下kl，若是找朋友，朋友沒家給我住？

我下kl，請問你懂我都去哪嗎？一天24小時都是和偉在一起。
若目地是去找別人，有可能24小時和他在一起？

若不是爲了他，我每個月下去做啥？吃飽沒事做，坐5小時車下去？
那05較有錢，我不去kao 05？有更大房睡，或kao彬？為何是偉？

不用緊，讓他們說吧。他相信我就行了。

2010-01-07T00:00:00.001+08:00

分手到底是不是你要的結果
給不了我太多還不准我難過
不知道是為了什麼
還要把你無力的愛記得那麼多
怎麼放手

也許上天安排你我擦身而過
我明白和你的愛不可能會有結果
你留下泛黃的承諾
要我抱著你的雙手流著淚不准你走
說我賤我也無話可說

連哭都是我的錯
在你面前還要我怎麼做
我看見你們擁抱還一笑而過
沉默是我的錯

連哭都是我的錯
空房間獨自等待著日落
愛沒有進入身體已經太執著
愛你是我的錯連結束也是我的錯

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最近，不知怎麽，想起你說過的話。。

我要謝謝你
當初跟我分手
讓我看見你的真面目

我還記得分手那天，你的很多句“名言”

你女子偷吃，不羞恥嗎？男人偷吃還正常，你是女子！
（現在啥時代，你說這話？男人偷吃就沒錯哦？那和你一起偷吃的那賤貨就很對得起她男友？我沒跟別人上床，你有，你還好意思說醬多？哈！）

我不想帶你這種媳婦給我媽！
（你就很配見我家人？記得你哭著說要跟我父母道歉你對不起他們女兒？是我大方，不要你沒面子，不讓你去說的。。太大方的女人，不適合做你媽的媳婦啦，找個鄉村女孩，思想和你一樣的最合了咯！她能配合到你的大男人主義！）

早知道就不爲了你，放棄她，她比你好幾百倍!
(是咯。。去咯。。等她和現在一樣，在你背後偷吃，你就高興咯！）

你來我家，幾時折過被？
（是咯我沒有折被。。但哦，你搬家時，誰幫你打掃房子，幫你搬東西？東西自己走路，灰塵被風吹出去哦？）

你們新加坡女生就是這樣，為了錢和人家在一起！你叫我進錢給你馬囯電話，當我水魚？
（恩對咯。。我是新加坡女。。所以我才有錢！你窮光蛋！當初來新加坡時，才認識你1個月，我借你300多塊也不怕你跑。也沒催你還，也沒說啥，因我有錢，我LC！你能怎樣？對咯，我當你水魚，和你出街，我自己還吃飯錢，有時還請你吃，心情好就買些東西給你，新年到，買了名牌錢包給你。。你真是釣到大水魚才是呢！）

有些人真是（惡人先告狀）啊~
説話大聲就贏了~

我偷吃也是你逼我的！是你不相信我，我才會犯錯！
（哇，這話好用！小心報應哦！反彈反彈~！）

好了，這是最後一次寫關與你的事了。
沒啥好留念了。不管我有多放不下，多不捨得你，回想這些事，我不得不放下你。。

你已是過去，我命中的历史。。
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偉昨夜很認真的跟我說
（我要你戒煙）
（喔。。好啊。。）
（真的。。我真要你戒。。）
（恩。。可以啊）
（你一煩，又抽了的啦）
（不會啦，若我抽，我是烏龜囉）
（你本來就是烏龜。。我是王八，我們是烏龜王八　^^）
（哈哈。。那我抽一次，你打我一次）
（打沒用。。你吸一口，罰洗廁所，第二口，罰清理客廳）

＠＠
我輸了。。我不敢吸煙了。。

但,還是要幫他收拾他房 ~>.<~
沒法子,我則任之一 T_T

我想你

2010-01-02T00:40:00.003+08:00

從我星期日回來到今天
偉都對我很好, 不像以前常冷落我
我很開心
每天都有陪我聊電話

每天都逗我開心
還記得那天在車上

翔: 這首谁的歌
偉: 林俊傑!
我: 哇?你懂喔! 你不是不懂他的歌?
偉: 最近我一直聽他的歌,為了你

^^

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他很讓我敬佩
看他這樣小混混樣
境說出這種話
看他没讀書
但
常讀報子
我, 大專畢業生卻不讀
啥都不知

對他真有另種看法了
好喜歡他

你的承諾

2010-01-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

烏雲遮蔽了天空窗外又是陰雨時候

傘下的戀人中不再有你我手牽手
一切過了太久
＊我們的十字路口下一站是誰在等候
你我的方向盤卻向著相反的彼岸
終點還是分開
告別你我離開之後
這回憶可以保留當初那美好的感動
你說你記住了不為彼此難過
過各自的生活

oh baby~~
＃你答應我的我都記得
但是你卻忘了你的承諾
不是說好彼此都不再聯絡
誰都別再犯錯是我的固執讓你難過
但是分手卻也無法選擇
我走了以後你要好好生活
不要想我也別再哭了

我們的承諾, 不是說好不分手, 184在一起, 有很多小阿肥, 小肥肥?
如今卻連朋友都不是了
我難過

你很好

2009-12-29T15:21:00.007+08:00

雖你有時讓我想吐血
雖你有時令我很傷心

但我還是覺得，你很好
雖你坏，但你對我好
雖你粗心，你卻盡量為我做得最好

從頭, 你都知道我心不屬於你
從頭, 你就知我還忘不了他
但你沒說啥
只懂對我好
你不介意, 也從不問我過去
只問我未來

我去找你, 你一次比一次的對我更好
我曾要放棄你
我想聖誕後, 不再理你

你對我那麼好, 一次又一次令我感動
我怎放得下?

你不想我去的地方, 你不想去遇的人, 你不想做的事
為了我開心, 你都隨我去
我想要玩的東西, 我要你做的事
你都盡量做得最好給我, 你都沒忘我要求過的事
都沒忘你答應我的東西

你知道我愛喝酒, 你帶我去喝
你知道我愛聽廣語歌, 你唱給我聽
你知道我沒看過營火蟲, 你要帶我去
當天去不成, 你很氣

我要遇洋, 麻煩, 但你還是帶了我去
從來沒個男友, 在對面馬路, 還是會下車, 過來牽我過馬路上車
很自然的, 大家都會叫我自己過對面, 上車
你卻不同, 從第1次去接我, 從不浪費和我在1起的時間
也不會像以前的他們, 不好意思在人家面前叫我dear

大家都有缺點
你也有
但, 我還是很感動, 你對我的好
還有很多很多你對我的好
你對我的甜蜜
我都有看在眼裡

我會珍惜
但
總有一天, 我也須放下你

我現在只能盡我能力
做最好的女友
來感謝你對我的付出

lovely weekend.

2009-12-28T23:31:00.003+08:00

had a lovely weekend!

24/12
took 9.30pm bus to pudu, reached abt 3.30am on 25/12
wei, hui, xiang picked me up & went for late9 supper~ bak kut teh!
bought both wei & 05 thongs wahahahaha.

25/12
woke up at 12+ the nxt day, wento meet d3 n ken for lunch ^^
they said im so much quieter now, asked me y. i hv no answer but i do noe im quieter now.
wento meet 05 after that, for dinner then for movies. two movies in a row~!
watched 'treasure hunter' sucky show & 'bodyguards & assassins' til 2am+ damn the cinema, so darn cold, 3 of us were shivering big time!
05 kept laughin at the thongs. he said hes tried all kinds of weird undies but nv thongs! but i bought M size he said its too small! haha. damnit wonder if he tried it on at home.

26/12
woke up & went for lunch with hui & xiang (bak kut teh!) den wento one utama to look for yang..
damn yang is sucha chatterbox -_____-" bored me to death! haha.
9pm+ wento meet 05 & machi, wanted to go watch fireflies but it was too late alrdy cus stupid 05 hvnt taken his dinner! ended up in ktv.. but i had fun! =D
drank n got abit drunk. went home to see bing bing still awake! ^^ so happy 2c that nabeh kia.. haha. i strted throwin bear bear on him. he gave me bear bear ^^

27/12
woke up & wento bath, wei said bing hung up his phone, cudnt wake him up..
i used my phone to call, bing answered n asked where are we.. i said IN ROOM LA..
haha went out of room, saw his door half ajar, still lyin there. haha.

went for bak kut teh again for lunch with xiang n hui & bing.. meet 05 after that, shortly after, 3pm+ left for bus terminal & came back home ~>.<~ felt the monday blues once i rched sg -_____-" hate that feeling.

yang said i look 21-23 while wei looks 22-24! hahahahahaha so happy hahahahahahaha!

gotta wait til march then i will go again. sad~
wei's been so nice 2 me.
evrywhere i wana go, ppl i wana meet, things i wana eat, things i wana do, he will do his best for me. how sweet.
tell me how to let go?

i had a dream..

2009-12-20T21:34:00.005+08:00

我夢見園..
夢見他,有新女友..
當時的我,心痛..
但
起身了就沒感覺了..
我忘了他了嗎?
沒完全吧..

偉偉生日17/12
那麼乖,沒出門.
在亂里和我渡過..

那天組織戰. 他進了cd通常都不和我聊,那天,他主動pm我聊..
我說沒空,戰完再聊..
戰完後,他叫我跟著他
到碼頭坐坐..陪了他,組織人叫我幫忙
我跟他說我要去幫人家先,等下再回來陪他,
他似乎不開心,叫我去吧..
我已離開了,看他好像不開心,就回去陪他,喇叭說今天,谁都別找我與他,我只陪他1個
他很開心..
原來他在生日,想我陪他.平時,他都會亂跑找人玩,那天,沒有,也不讓我離開他..
原來他也有這樣的1面..

還對我說,你要是第1個喇叭我的喔..
這幾天,我和他都很少聯絡
大家都忙著出去玩..
拜4晚,他和朋友出去唱歌,喝酒,6點才回
我知道他6點才回,故意問他幾點回
看他可信嗎..
庆幸他沒撒謊..

拜5晚,company xmas party後,和yv,joyce,seng去唱歌..
聽到新不了情,流淚
想到園與我之間..回不去的從前..

還唱了(我們的愛)
我們的愛過了就不再回來
直到現在我還默默的等待

我們的愛我明白
已變成你的負擔只是永遠我都放不開
最後的溫暖

唱到2點,回家拿酒與seng在樓下聊到5-6點才回..

拜6,與表姐妹弟去orchard看xmas street lights但今年的很令我失望..
之後與lulu還有1大班人去看半夜場,回到家都5點多了..

今天整天呆在家.
現在好想睡,好累,好悶,好沒心情..

這星期發生很多
但腦海空白
只記得了這些..

avatar movie真好看..

我是
廢才幫-肉骨茶

晚安.

i miss you..

2009-12-13T01:26:00.006+08:00

..still..

my blog has bcome so chinese.
well, im chinese, nth wrg with bloggin in chinese.
usin english @ work evryday, gotta practise on my chinese.
needa teach my kids chinese nxt time ya & i've gt chinese reading frens readin my blog.

so, here goes..

還想他..盡管我說了多少次,不再想他,不再為他哭,懦弱的我,還是做不到.
還是心痛..
但真心話,是好很多了..
因有了偉..

他說了句話,我都忘了這個道理..
愛,是慢慢培養的..
他說越來越愛我了, 我也不知不覺, 愛上他對我的好..
找另個人來讓我忘了園,看起來,成功了.
但,最終,該放手,忘了偉的時候,怎麼辦?

又要從復一切..
我現在,已到了放不下偉的地部了..
越陷越深..

他問,我下去時,要跟他回家嗎?
不知是講爽,還是碰碰運氣,看我肯不肯跟他回..
我没回他,只問了 (你家有啥?)

他說家付進有營火蟲,他帶我去看..
很期待..長那麼大,沒看過,在電視里也沒看過..
(死zuzu: 看啥營火蟲啦,拿火燒蟲不就營火蟲了囉!)

前天,我問了他(忘了啥)問題,他問回我
d3,ken,zuzu與我,你選谁?
我答不出..
個個都對我重要,我要怎樣答?
他聽起來,不是很開心..
當然,若是我,也同樣不開心..若全是與自己同性別的,還能接受
現在,把他與其他男生放一樣地位,是我也會不開心..

我對他說,別為難我,他們都是我的兄弟..
(兄弟就啥都一起做,都一起睡)
也是啦,谁會不吃醋這種事..
性格和我非常像..

我道歉,因我答不出,令他不開心..
我用可憐的語氣跟他說話
他心軟了
他說
(05與我,你選谁)
(當然你啦!)
(那你不是答得出了囉!不用道歉了)
他好好喔..so sweet..

他問我愛他啥..
回了他,我也問回他..
他說..
愛我囉說 -_______-"
因我囉說,才有話跟他聊
喜歡我會管著他
喜歡我會關心他
喜歡我會吃醋
喜歡我疼他

奇怪..喜歡我會管他? 哈哈..

我問他,我有做過令他吃醋的事?
(有啦!)
(幾時?)
(你啦,跟ken那麼親密,還抱他不肯走)
哈哈 ~>.<~

今天,又去吃肉骨茶了..和爸媽去
媽一直罵我,說衣不穿好,一直露奶給人看到
我跟偉說,說我下去時,穿少點,看他氣嗎
(你敢?你嘛穿來囉..最多我打包回家給你吃,我打機,你睡覺)
哈哈..
我喜歡這答案..

第1次下去,他一直叫我穿外套
我罵他神經病,那麼熱!
後來才發覺,我穿太少,他不喜歡但沒說
第2次下去,穿得很薄
他問怎麼穿那麼薄
出去時,一直幫我把衣拉好..

我跟他說,這一切,與他每次看我傷心而心軟時
我都有注意到..他很疼我..
他說怎麼我都那麼注意啊..
(不好嗎?我才會珍惜你的好..)

好了,不寫了,跟偉聊電話 ^^

老了

2009-12-07T18:48:00.001+08:00

又老了1嵗。
26/11
放了工，和tony去吃飯，去找tien拿了禮物就回傢。。
vene在我傢，等了豪，意，賓過來，意帶了女友1起來。。

在家樓下playgrd喝酒，他們買了蛋糕給我，賓帶了自煮的雞來。。
就這樣喝，拍照，吃，聊天。。
我醉了。好久沒那麽醉了。
打電話給偉偉。。
他很開心的跟我聊了很久，跟05哥聊，跟彬哥聊。。跟他們聊得很開心。。

意與女友2點就回了。
豪與賓送我們倆回傢，大家在我房聊到5.30am才回。。

我去沖涼，和寶貝d3聊天，聊到1半我睡着！哈哈~
又醉又累，沒法子。。

27/11
起身就打亂.
9.30pm的車下kl.
在車上,和寶貝與愛人聊了3-4鐘的電話~!
偉2點就與彬到了pudu等我.偉被彬講 "急啥?都還沒到!"
哈哈. 我3點才到呢!
1上車,彬問我(要喝奶嗎?) 我以為他作弄我! 我回他 (我很多!)
才看到他前面有包奶 -.- 哈哈.

回到家,偉給我看,彬拿了個安全套,放水了掛在門后給我! 哈哈 ~>.<~
sot 公. 隔天，我又把套放去彬的房。。

出去吃了飯，去cc一下，去逛逛街，想看電影但時間不ngam。。約05哥去cc，等machi他們來，哪知他們倆遇車禍！05就下去找他們。我和偉兩人在那裏等咯。。等他們來，5人就在cc到3-4點才回。。

回到去，又看見那套在房裏！哈哈。隔天我又還回彬的房。。哈哈他很可愛，和我很好聊。。若情行不一樣，可能我會開心點。。

回新的路上，彬打給我，說了一句話，這個月，聼了2次。。

“我好像才看見你1眼，你就回了“

那感覺，不知怎形容。。我很想念d3與ken。。但偉不帶我去找他們。我說xmas我下去，必須帶我去找他們，他開玩笑的說不，我就靜了。我很傷心，要哭出來了，他看見，連忙説好，帶我去。。

我不懂。。他對我忽冷忽熱的愛，我很累，很厭。。很想躲起來哭，怎麽今年，都沒啥開心事的？
我很想園。非常想他。但，我能做啥？也不需做啥。也不想。

只想哭。

哭出來，會好點的。

但，

在這煩亂的城市裏，我能在哪，有自己的空間？
自己的時間？

很煩。

每天的心情像過山車roller coaster。。
1分鐘開心
下分鈡沉默。。

5/12 sandra & anand 結婚。
前同事們都問
你男友（園）呢？

多難堪，多難受。
sandra說（我願意）時，我和她一樣，哭了。。

好幸福。。

現在我不求嫁人。只求人疼。
表面再堅強的人，也有脆弱的時候。

我再也不是以前那個表面堅強的我了。
多苦都能傻笑的我。
再也沒依靠讓我再堅強的面對一切。。

剪了髮
染了髮

昨天與tien去jb吃了肉骨茶，按摩，看電影。。
那肉骨茶好好吃哦。。我要變豬了，1個月内吃了多少次肉骨茶哦。。

等下發夢豬來報酬追殺我。。哈哈。。

很沒心情。我到底，現在要怎樣？
沒用的我，沒了愛，不行。。

沒用。。

要怎樣現在？

今天，是我們遇見的1個月。。
明天，使我們在1起的1個月。。
今天，也是。。

我和園，2年2個月的日子。。
沒了。。
一切都是回億了。。

心痛。。
怎麽這痛，3個月了，還不走？
還是依然那麽痛。。
園，你是什麽？
能把我搞到這樣。。

我要怎麽辦。。要誰，才能帶我走出來？

wish you have the keys to my cell..

【癮】我的願望，你陪我實現嗎？

婆婆跌倒了

2009-11-26T00:39:00.003+08:00

現在還不知怎樣了. 只能在家等. 爸獨自去醫院看她..

今天沒啥特別. 只看到園把我friendster刪除名單了.
需要這樣嗎? 無所謂啦. 現在我都很少想他了.
因我這次有了男友,他很氣我. 氣我這樣傷他.

我們分手了. 他也該看開了吧, 我有了別人又怎樣?
我没對不起他,我也没騙他錢(我每次花錢買東西給他,哪會騙他錢?)..
他那麼氣,那麼恨我.
他有想過嗎, 這叫傷他心, 這叫我騙他感情?

他去偷吃時,我不傷心?我不氣?
是誰傷誰多,是誰錯多,是誰比較看得開?
也夠證明了,誰愛誰多.

為何我要讓我媽的唯一女兒這樣給人欺負?
也是該醒了吧我..
我不應該受這種對待. 很多朋友都很疼我..
家人也很疼我.
不需他, 我也能快樂.

我的偉, 今天在亂裡又大玩喇叭了.
多數都寫上我名.
還寫了那中國歌 "生日禮物" 放了我生日日期..
好笑喔..
令人羨慕.
人家在組織裡說他很愛我喔.. ^^

他很可愛,今天跟我說了很多可愛的東西.

到現在為止, 跟他1起,雖不長時間, 也距離遠, 但還蠻開心的.
現在很累了. 1點了.
該睡了.
今天很多人提早跟我說生日快樂. ^^

scary.

2009-11-24T12:39:00.005+08:00

im gon die! received my hp bill $600++ to pay! omfg im gon die big time this time!

昨天，和彬哥哥聊天。。他很可愛，人廷不錯的。。我們聊了很多。。他勸我，和他弟好好聊1下，爲了我們倆的好。。我跟他說，我知道，我把1切想得很簡單。

我有想過這1切。我現在，是真心，越來越愛他了。我們不會有結果。但我已對愛很累了，煩那麽多，挑那麽多，最終自己傷心，什麽都得不到。

我跟彬說，你弟還小，只年輕1次，愛誰就讓他愛，還有時間再挑的。我自己呢，就不想再為愛那麽煩了。愛是快樂的，不要自己拿這些來煩。千挑万選，選到好的，又怎樣，人是會變的。現在，偉也沒讓我擔心/煩啥。。可能是我不在乎，可能是他真不需我擔心？在1起第3星期了，我沒懷疑過他。剛在1起，因該是會不信任對方的，但我卻信他。我不知為何。這也好，自己不用煩那麽多。他要騗我，也給他騗吧，都給人騗到慣了。

昨天，他沒信息我，我不開心了整天。晚上，彬說我“該死”，我也不懂啥事，他說去看我的facebook,偉看見我和園的照片，吃醋了。我就連忙把全都刪了。我打給偉，他和朋友喝茶。

回到家，給了我個簡單的信息。我打給他，問他是否氣照片才不找我。他說沒有，他是沒空。12am罷了，他說我怎麽那麽早下線的。我說沒心情，也沒事做。他就問起啥事.

"因你整天沒找我"
"你以為我氣你照片的事?沒有啦,你們都是過去了"
"哪你怎麼沒找我"
"我沒空,我剛才要回復你但給他們說我出來1直玩電話"

然後他就1直哄我囉..要逗我笑,我故意不要笑,他還很耐心的哄我..若是園,哄都不哄就會對我大聲,說我小氣,說我霸道之類的..雖是不開心他没找我,但他和園比起來,我滿足了.他還說 "我會改的"

今天他真的有1直信息我.可能明天不會了.但過了哪麼多,我也不想煩著些小事了.很累了.

他很可愛.喜歡跟我玩,跟我說話lcly.給我學到了,我也跟他lc說話,他就投降了.

"對不起老婆大人"

哈哈.很好玩呢他..
我說要他跪榴槤壳..哈哈..

好累.去睡了..

我想念的是..

2009-11-22T03:50:00.002+08:00

我想念你家
我想念你家人
我想念你的疼愛
我想念你的壞
我想念你的好
我最想念的是
我在你心里的位子..

但這些都是我們回不去的從前.

你的照片, 我不捨得刪, 你的回忆, 我不捨得忘.
為何我要對你那麼不捨得?
為何現在的他, 對我那麼好, 我還是忘不了你, 還是為你流淚?
你傷害了我最多, 但我卻愛你愛得最深.

我不要再想你. 不要再讓自己受這種傷害了.

那天, 你知道我有男友了, 你火大了.
說我騙你. 說我變了. 說了我很多不好聽的東西.
你知道, 我到底是啥想法嗎? 你了解我心情和我需要的是甚麼嗎?

我等你2星期, 等你復合的答復, 你卻遲遲沒答案.
若你真那麼珍惜我, 需想那麼久? 要個女生等你那麼久?
當我要復合, 你不珍惜. 當我放棄了, 有別人了, 你卻恨我不等你.

那天是你要我放棄的.
現在卻變成我的錯.

在你心里, 永遠都是別人錯. 你最完美.
對不起我的人是你.
被賴的人卻是我.
因你說 "都是你的錯. 因你不相信我, 我才會做錯事"
你信賴的吧?

謝謝你2年來給我的快樂,悲傷.
我最愛的還是你.

現在的他, 對我很好.
你記得嗎, 每當我下kl時, 怕沒票回, 就叫你打給鋒仔訂票.
打通電話, 你卻遲遲沒打. 我就每天提醒你. 你卻天天說明天.
還罵我, 別煩你這些事. 打通電話, 很難嗎?

現在的他, 打去訂票, 不能預訂, 生病都駕個1小時車去買我票.
塞車, 下車, 走去買票, 下雨, 淋雨回車.

他能做到這樣, 你呢? 打電話喔! 不行?
我没用. 我懦弱. 你大聲, 我就認全是我的錯.
他對我大聲, 我卻艮大聲. 我對他不夠好.
從這1刻開始, 我要對他好.

他也知道我心里, 最愛的不是他.
他没說啥. 他還是對我好.
你說你愛我. 你卻1次又1次傷我. 也不肯定自己是否還要跟我继续嗎..

他很愛做弄我. 我要他說愛我, 他就偏不說.
我没要求時, 他就說愛我.
他也愛給我驚喜.

雖他粗心大意但他疼我.
今天, 他逗我笑了.
他說要喇叭, 要吊人. 我便給了他.
他卻喇叭
Sugar dear i love u. i love u very much. u cannot love other ppl u noe ma?
1年多了我們玩. 你有嗎?
總是有了兄弟, 就對我冷淡. 不回我的密語, 有時還罵我.
不接我電話, 就因在升級. 他升級, 還會回我密, 會陪我聊天.
晚上他也和你一樣, 會摆檔. 你愛放 "boom queen"
今天我去看, 他竟放了 "i love u dear ^^"
你懂, 感覺怎樣不同嗎? 我笑了, 一直笑了.

我不要再為你而哭了. 因有人在努力的逗我笑, 我不該再為你哭.
雖我和他1定不會長久, 但我要珍惜他對我的好. 因要找到對自己好的人不容易.
你就剛失去了1個.

cb zuzu 說了我1句話今天. 我要寫下來, 記住..
你的廢話已說到出神入化了, 連耶穌都要跟你說對不起.
哈哈. 死廢才.

lets talk abt happenings in nov.

1/11 suporn bday, met up w her in e evening & ltr meet up w poly classmates @ bt timah mcd n aftr it strikes 12, was Pat's bday! gave her a bday kiss. 2nd girl i gave bday kiss in my life. 1st was linda in sec sch!

6/11 hao's bday. made him cheesecake n evn thou he dnt take cheese, he had 2 slices of it.
went K @ clementi with yi & bin.

nth much cept for my visits down to kl.
1st nite rched my lil bros hse at 4am. slp over n fought a lil w them. (for fun)
saturday morn got morn call from dai gor , wants me 2 chat w him. arse!
made me so tired n headache for e rest of e day. played game n went back to slp while waitin for em to come fetch us.

wento eat, blah blah blah, n headed for PJ where i told him im gon meet him late & he got mad,
said alot of things n asked me 2 4gt him. alrite i did. n i accepted jayson. went the dirty place we went the last time round, evrybody was unhappy, ken was drunk n made me feel so guilty when he said "u'r really gon go w them? i hvnt seen u long enuf." true, when i was thr, he was half aslp, when i was aslp, he wento work n i oni got 2c him for 30mins in e evening b4 i went home w jayson. i cried alot that day. when he asked me to forget him, when ken said those things to me, when d3 was concerned abt me, askin if i need him to accompany me to jayson's place.

so touched by the two boys. love em so much.
sunday morn, woke up 11am, went for my long awaited pork ribs & headed back to kl for my coach back home.

my boy: "wt time is the bus?"
me: "2pm. y?"
boy: "mcb. y cant he help u buy a later time one?"

haha. i miss him. miss all of em. frequent visits to them makes me happy.
totally stressed out in this city of mine. they make me smile. too many things happened this yr.
luckily its comin to an end. hope 2010 will be a better one.

kl again nxt week. my bday's comin. gon smooch my dearest for the longest time! been so sweet of him this 2 weeks thou sometimes he makes my blood boil. he alwaz noe hw 2 make me smile. dats y hes my 'bf' turned bf. after my bday wud b anand & sandra's big day! omfg shes 22 n gettin married, im 24 n still semi- single. damnit!

after which, my boy's bday which i cant accompany him else mum'll kill me for travelling so often, plans for xmas visit hvnt finialise ^^ no bf in sg, xmas is boring!
im not a girly girly sister outing person. i like boyish fun.

darn slpy nw. hvnt blogged for so long alrdy. hvnt been so chatty alrdy. too many things on my mind, too many things happening, too much heartaches, too much love & too many suitors @@
yes, once again, another one has confessed. one that we least expected.

p/s: sister o0o cant write too much personal things here cus u'll nv noe who's readin!
at least my sister o0o knows, whts happening ard me. hes the one who knows me the best.
dats y hes my sister o0o & i love him so much! muacks!

a new life.

2009-11-10T17:56:00.002+08:00

7/11

finally i took off his necklace, placed it in my bag, away from my vision, away from my mind.
someone replaced him, someone whom i noe wudnt last long in my heart but yet,
out of my selfishness
i took my 1st step to making him disappointed.

for the crave of being loved, i accepted him.

mean of me. tsk tsk.

yet hes so nice to me.

tsk tsk.

what am i?

i dnt know the person in my mirror anymore.

hello, stranger.

i miss u, so much.

2009-10-28T18:24:00.001+08:00

LATELY I'M NOT WHO I USED TO BE
SOMEONE'S COME AND TAKEN ME
WHERE I DON'T WANNA GO
IF I KNEW EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE TO DO
IN ORDER TO BE THERE FOR YOU
WHEN YOU WERE FEELING LOW

AND ALL THE THINGS WE EVER WANTED
WERE ONCE YOURS AND MINE
NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT
ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND
EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND
EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT
EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE
THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND
AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

SAVE ME, I'VE FALLEN FROM MY DESTINY
YOU AND I WERE MEANT TO BE
I'VE THROWN IT ALL AWAY
NOW YOU'RE GONE
IT'S TIME FOR ME TO CARRY ON
BUT BABY I JUST CAN'T GO ON
WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE

AND ALL THE THINGS WE EVER WANTED
WERE ONCE YOURS AND MINE
NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT
ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND
EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND
EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT
EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE
THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND
AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

WE CAN SURVIVE IT
ALL THE PAIN WE FEEL INSIDE
YOU RELIED ON ME AND NOW I'VE LET YOU DOWN
NOW, I PROMISE YOU FOREVER
I WILL BE THE BEST I CAN
NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT
ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND
EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND
EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT
EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE
THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND
AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
SINCE I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND
EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND
EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT
EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE
THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND
AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

重来好不好

2009-10-28T10:46:00.001+08:00

夜一屋子的颓废
思念不放手让我睡
你最喜欢听的爵士音乐
慵懒的忧伤的杂念

而我站在照片的左边
快乐离我越来越远
每年这个季节特别有感觉
我好想你想再见你一面

（让）我们重来好不好再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒倾听你的耳语心跳
许多事曾经是煎熬回头看突然都明了
用一切换你的微笑

就像在歌的转折总有一些期待
真心才能诠释的爱

冻结

2009-10-28T10:43:00.001+08:00

不小心回到那一天　不小心一切又重演
你如此完美的一切　竟会出现在我的世界
你说话不爱说第二遍　但偏在情人节那一夜
给我你心爱的项鋉　说了三次对我的爱恋
我那时糊涂　不明白为何你会哭
后知后觉以后　领悟

冻结那时间　冻结初遇那一天
冻结那爱恋　冻结吻你那瞬间
我也会疲倦　你的项鋉　在我身边　带我穿梭回从前
冻结那空间　冻结有你的世界
冻结那画面　冻结不让它溶解
我若是疲倦　你的项鋉　在我身边　发光在我胸前
你的项鋉　在我身边　陪伴着我过每一天

我不見了件重要的東西..

2009-10-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

我醒来你还在不在
虽然你说好了
明天就要让你离开
我知道
有些事情说不明白
剩下的思念
那一天才能停下来
再多温柔
再多等候
都已足够
你不知道我有多么难受
我没有更多的要求
只要你躺在我胸口
像个孩子一样温柔
我没有更多的要求
想给你我的所有
你却选择放手
你动人笑容
失去你的大风
每一次的想起
都隐隐作痛
你却太依赖我的宽容
封存了太久
我不想再承受
再多温柔
再多等候
都不住口
你不知道我有多么难受
我没有更多的要求
只要你躺在我胸口
像个孩子一样温柔
我没有更多的要求
想给你我的所有
你却选择放手
我在这里等你一句
我听见音一切都值得
这回忆
我没有更多的要求
只要你躺在我胸口
像个孩子一样温柔
我没有更多的要求
就像给你我的所有
你却选择放手
你为什么放手

baby i miss u

2009-10-22T15:31:00.002+08:00

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过娇纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

we chatted on msn ytd.
he said hvnt spoke to me for long time
he misses me
said hvnt seen me for so long
y did i do all that i did
his heart aches

do u noe, i lose u = lose my life?
i make myself work the whole day
im so tired

do u wana start over again?
i hv no confidence
me too
giv me time to tink abt it.

im still waiting.

i love u baby. still. as much as i used to.
necklace still ard my neck.
pics of u still evrywhere.
on my notebook
on my mobile
in my wallet
in my brain.

plushes still on my bed
plush representin me still in your room

heart's still with u

baby i miss u. i want u back despite what happened, the mean things u said to make me leave..

有一種愛叫做放手

2009-10-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

如果兩個人的天堂　像是溫馨的牆
囚禁你的夢想　幸福是否像是一扇鐵窗　候鳥失去了南方

如果你對天空嚮往　渴望一雙翅膀
放手讓你飛翔　你的羽翼不該伴隨玫瑰　聽從凋謝的時光

浪漫如果變成了牽絆　我願爲你選擇回到孤單
纏綿如果變成了鎖鏈　抛開諾言

有一種愛叫做放手　為愛放棄天長地久
我們相守若讓你付出所有　讓真愛帶我走
有一種愛叫做放手　為愛結束天長地久
我的離去若讓你擁有所有　讓真愛帶我走　說分手

為了你　失去你　狠心扮演傷害你
為了你　離開你　永遠不分的離去

我还怀念着和他的歌- (你是我的宝贝)

2009-10-19T12:02:00.000+08:00

我　一直在寻找　可爱的微笑
今天终于让我找到
我　希望你知道　我不是开玩笑
今天才发现了你的好

你　有特别的味道　让我神魂颠倒
我想我一定是中了招
呜　美丽在燃烧　我快控制不了
Wu........................

其实我不错　可以考虑我
什么都可以 Just don't say no

我们手牵手　沙滩走一走
只要跟你在一起就足够

希望你能当我宝贝　你一定不会后悔
我只有一个要求　就　是要对你好

永远不让你流泪　永远都不让你心碎
希望你相信我　我们在一起好吗

海角七号

2009-10-16T15:35:00.000+08:00

依稀的记忆从前的你

背靠着背听海的声音

夕阳和海面都太清晰

我就在这里找到了你

那天的日记天飘着雨

我躲进眼泪你在那里

夕阳和海面依然清晰

还是在这里我丢了你

我把对你的思念写在海角上

寄给那年七号的雨季

有些爱不怕时间太漫长

已经生长在心里

我把对你的思念写在海角上

寄给那年七号的雨季

有一些等待不能太漫长

已经枯萎在心底

那天的日记天飘着雨

我躲进眼泪你在那里

夕阳和海面依然清晰

还是在这里我丢了你

我把对你的思念写在海角上

寄给那年七号的雨季

有些爱不怕时间太漫长

已经生长在心里

我把对你的思念写在海角上

寄给那年七号的雨季

有一些等待不能太漫长

已经枯萎在心底

我把对你的思念写在海角上

寄给那年七号的雨季

有一些等待不能太漫长

已经枯萎在心底

有一些等待不能太漫长

已经枯萎在心底

戴爱玲 - 对的人

2009-10-12T15:03:00.000+08:00

你问在我心中　是否还苦恼
那次受伤　否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照　我一切都好
一个人　不算困扰

爱虽然很美妙　却不能为了寂寞　又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待　仔细寻找　感觉很重要
宁可空白了手　等候一次　真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上　一定会遇到
对的人出现(在眼角)

那次流过的泪　让我学习到
如何祝福　如何转身　不要
在眼泪体会到　与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要　是一种对照

能愿意为了一份爱　付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候　我就算已经准备好
放手去爱　海阔天高
喔... 耶...

Sorry

2009-10-07T15:45:00.002+08:00

Sorry... I am really sorry.
我又一次把你气哭在陌生街头
爱你... 我当然爱你
自从第一眼到现在什至没人敢预测的将来

* 请你相信不是我不愿意改变我自已
而是一再努力又一再放弃那个软弱的自已
其实我恨透了我自已没有认输的勇气
让你受尽了不安和委屈
# 你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人
也是我这一生这一生唯一能让我安定下来的人
虽然我并没有并没有并没有一身温纯的灵魂
但是我很愿意很愿意做那个永远照顾的人
我的爱人请听我有颗不善言语的心
只能够看着你远处的背影

黄昏

2009-10-07T15:12:00.001+08:00

过完整个夏天　忧伤并没有好一些
开车行驶在公路无际无边　有离开自己的感觉
* 唱不完一首歌　疲倦还剩下黑眼圈
感情的世界伤害在所难免　黄昏再美终要黑夜
# 依然记得从你口中说出再见坚决如铁　昏暗中有种烈日灼身的错觉
黄昏的地平线　划出一句离别　爱情进入永夜
依然记得从你眼中滑落的泪伤心欲绝　混乱中有种热泪烧伤的错觉
黄昏的地平线　割断幸福喜悦　相爱已经幻灭

当你孤单你会想起谁

2009-10-07T15:06:00.000+08:00

你的心情总在飞　什么事都想去追　想抓住一些安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊　你最害怕孤单的滋味

你的心那么脆　一碰就会碎　经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪　你最害怕每天的天黑

但是天总会黑　人总要离别　谁也不能永远陪谁

而孤单的滋味　谁都要面对　不只是你我会感觉到疲惫

当你孤单你会想起谁　你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲　只有我能体会　让我再陪你走一回

这歌好像在说我呢 o.0

7th Oct 2009

2009-10-07T13:29:00.002+08:00

today's supposed to be our 2.5yrs anniversary.

supposed to..

i saw his friendster.

updated 3 days ago.

removed our photos

status single.

my heart aches.

im still crying over him,

my profile status 'in a relationship'

he, single.

my heart aches so much.

jus wana hear 'i love u' again.

a hug, a kiss, i will die willingly.

today,

W.Loon: "y wudnt u accept my love?"
Me: "not only you, whomever that comes along, im not ready."

我的心太乱　要一些空白　你若是明白　让我暂时的离开

Happening.

2009-10-06T11:17:00.005+08:00

3rd & 4th Oct.

place, KL.

happenings,

tears
drugs
ktv
beer
lust
hangover

stepped into his place for the last time to pack my stuff n left tearing.
poor sister gt food poisoning & slept half the day away.
went for K with e guy(s) n girl,
were all well n happy til girl asked arse to fetch her home,
all went back unhappily fed up w arse n girl.

hangover the nxt day n disappointed my gd buddy mr yang.
will meet him e next time im there.
nov.
i'll be back.

next week.
malacca.
else,
gathering at aunt's.

busy busy.

enjoying life to escape reality n heartache.

get over it soon lady. be strong.

我的心太乱

2009-10-06T11:17:00.001+08:00

夜里难以入睡　用什么可以麻醉　情绪太多怎堪面对
不是不要你陪　有些事你无法体会　卸下了防备　孤独跟随
我想要一个自己的空间　能够好好想想我们之间的明天
如果爱情不如我们想像的甜美　那么所有的罪让我来揹
我的心太乱　要一些空白　你若是明白　让我暂时的离开
我的心太乱　不敢再贪更多爱　想哭的我　却怎么哭也哭不出来
我的心太乱　要一些空白　老天在不在　忘了为我来安排
我的心太乱　害怕爱情的背叛　想哭的我
像是一个迷路小孩　迷路的小孩

爱不够

2009-09-25T14:33:00.000+08:00

送你送到家门口还有话要说
来不及开口你摇一摇头
阳光也好落寞
你的手表还给你让时间暂停
想重新来过是过分要求
爱已经破了洞
最后一声再见说不出口我还爱你爱不够
火热的心还不想被放弃
要分享的事还太多
最后一声珍重说不出口我还爱你爱不够
破碎的心再不能拼拼凑凑
我觉得伤好重心好痛

Break up 23.09.2009

2009-09-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

爱在记忆中找你(岁月风云插曲)
作词：张美贤　作曲：邓智伟

我对你这一生哪个可比
我与你差一些永远一起
邂逅时间场地似连场好戏
要自何页说起 Wow Ho

爱太重深呼吸欠缺空气
爱太美轻轻的却载不起
爱情来到时候似明媚天气
它走了突然骤变雪落雨飞

*如果可以恨你全力痛恨你
连遇上亦要躲避
无非想放下你还是挂念你
谁又会及我伤悲
前事最怕有人提起就算怎么伸尽手臂
我们亦有一些距离*

你太远该怎么说对不起
你太近一转身却已高飞
快乐也许太短似场流星雨
一眨眼就如幻觉怕又记起

REPEAT**

我情愿我狠心憎你我还在记忆中找你

i still love you baby.

Singpura~ O Singapura~

2009-07-12T12:15:00.002+08:00

From Yahoo news yesterday...

Following are the top-10 most expensive cities, according to the Mercer survey.

1. Tokyo

2. Osaka

3. Moscow

4. Geneva

5. Hong Kong

6. Zurich

7. Copenhagen

8. New York City

9. Beijing

10.Singapore

kao eh. i wana move outta sg!!!!

爱到疯癫

2009-06-15T01:35:00.000+08:00

空荡荡的房间坟墓里一样安静的夜
不肯撕去的昨天陪着我还在等谁
你一定没有变一定还爱我对不对
眼角不能有泪水下一秒你就会出现

爱到疯癫苦的酸的无所谓
看背叛爬上你不遮掩的脸
我竟然还觉得很美
爱到疯癫伤了痛了都没感觉
你要我等你到哪个期限我都奉陪

你下楼去买烟然后迷路迷了几天
这样牵强的谎言对我都是种慰藉
你一定没有变一定还爱我像从前
嘴角不能再流血等一下吻你不方便

爱到疯癫苦的酸的无所谓
看背叛爬上你不遮掩的脸
我竟然还觉得很美
爱到疯癫伤了痛了都没感觉
你要我等你到哪个期限
你要我再赔上多少尊严我都奉陪

爱到疯癫苦的酸的无所谓
看背叛爬上你不遮掩的脸
我竟然还觉得很美
爱到疯癫伤了痛了都没感觉
你要我等你到哪个期限我都奉陪
我都奉陪

totally depressed.

2009-04-05T11:52:00.002+08:00

im chattin with ivan right now. hes unhappy stayin here too. econmic crisis now? my foot! its been econmic crisis evryday evry yr living in sg. he says he wana move out too but hes an only child too.

this few days, time passes so slowly. i force myself not to wake up. bcus waking up, means facing reality that hes not by my side. if im aslp, i'll not cry. if im aslp, i might dream of him huggin me.. i cry.. evryday.. many times.. i duno hw 2 go thru this..

sharon asked me out. i told her i dnt hv the mood to. she said since im down, the more i should get out. but i really dunwan. all i wan is him to come back now..

he said after he found a job back there, he'll bring me to play den back his hometown 2 relax n visit his mum.. it might be a joy, might be sorrow. joy i can c him again, can go play again but sorrow that thr's job available, hes really really not comin back anymore..

day 1

2009-04-04T00:59:00.003+08:00

my baby left sg yesterday(2/4) at 6.30pm. hes goin back, not comin back to work anymore. im gon live for months w/o him until his/my nxt leave then we can visit each other for few days. its gon be tough. its jus the 1st day n im missin him so darn much. today's(3/4) my last day at work. i resigned. im so tired, so confused, so stressed, so depressed n so helpless. i need a break so that i can tink straight. i wana noe what i wan in life. i wana noe if i still wana continue in this industry or change something else. n what is that something else. im real jaded. i hate sg. i wana get outta sg but thr's so many things n ppl tying me back here for instance my parents n my dog.

i grew up here but i grew to hate this materialistic place n its gettin more n more disappointing. all they do is to develop evry single inch of the island to make $ n also suck evry single penny out of us so as to make the country 'prosper'. evrythin is gettin stricter n more unreasonable, unreasonable especially prices. sigh.

great relieve on my mind that im jobless now, i have more time to relax n tink but comes another type of stress call 'bo lui' but its ok, with or w/o a job, i still face this stress. gtg tink of a cake to teach yk. hes gon make it for his girl's bday. im gon charge him = less 'bo lui' stress. haha.

p.ubin

2009-03-23T22:28:00.001+08:00

FINALLY FOR THE 1ST TIME IN MY 24YRS LIFE IN SINGAPORE, I WENTO P.UBIN TODAY! HURRAY! hehe. sooooooo kumpung! i rode e bicycle frm 1pm-6pm. wana die nw omg. went with my fatboy n met an uncle on e way who brought us ard. he frequents ubin so he knows e way ard. gt a v.bad sunburn now. wats worst was the mosquito bites. i gt the most bites.. fuggin itchy god damnit. im so darn sleepy now. will go slp soon. 10.30pm now, gotta wake up at 6am later for work at 8am. i hate workin. i so badly wana rest.. my nxt offday is this thurs. anticipating! 3cheers for restdays! hurray hurray hurray!

end of 2008

2008-12-16T05:41:00.001+08:00

comin to e end of 2008 n im finally posting on my blog once again. all i do all day is work eat slp play. monotonous life eh. my english's deproving(wonder if i spelt that right) speakin too much msian mandarin n less of english. damn! im so darn sleepy now cus its almost 6am. cant tink of what to post thou i wan so much to post sth abt my life lately.

well, updates, zhen gt ROM-ed, i tink i posted this b4, chunhai jus got a baby boy on 9/12/08 n my tummy's gettin bigger. not baby. all fats. sigh.

DOES ANYONE STILL VISIT MY BLOG?

i wonder.

wonderful tonight.

2008-08-17T03:40:00.001+08:00

Eric Clapton

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."

I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."

it never fails to make me feel so awwwwww romantic.

happy national day!

2008-08-09T01:08:00.001+08:00

happy national day ppl!

zhen ROM-ed on 06/08/08.
her ROM party was held at e friggin 'air-con is free' zouk wine bar.
happy for her. when's ur turn? hehe.

idolise u, always.

2008-05-10T03:20:00.002+08:00

wubai da ge will always always be my idol! haha!

power lah! hes chnged so much! hes dancing! hahahahahaha!

been goin ktv-ing v.often lately. will sing wubai's song evry single time w/o fail. his old songs brgs back memories n still sound so gd afta so many many yrs.

my fav.

2008-01-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

my fav place in sg - chinatown.

why?

cus its much quieter than other places in sg.
thr's lesser of shoppin ctrs which sells e same things over n over.
thr r much lesser youths dressed in ugly clothes.
n less whining schoolgirls.
lau choy seng n sia huat shops are thr.
many interesting stuff sellin thr, apart frm e cny stuff.
e most important thing, my fav tutu kueh stall is in ppl's park complex.
i shud retire soon n reside in chinatown.

From e bulletin board.

2008-01-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

During one of our seminars, a woman
asked a common question.
She said, "How do I know if I married
the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man
sitting next to her so I said,
"It depends. Is that your husband?" In
all seriousness, she answered "How
do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the
chances are good that it's
weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the
beginning, you fell in love with
your spouse. You anticipated their
call, wanted their touch, and liked
their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't
hard. In fact, it was a completely
natural and spontaneous experience. You
didn't have to DO anything.
That's why it's called "falling" in
love...

Because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was
swept of my feet." Think about the
imagery of that __expression. It
implies that you were just standing
there; doing nothing, and then
something came along and happened TO
YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive
and spontaneous experience.
But after a few years of marriage, the
euphoria of love fades. It's the
natural cycle of EVERY relationship.
Slowly but surely, phone calls
become a bother (if they come at all),
touch is not always welcome (when
it happens), and your spouse's
idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute,
drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with
every relationship, but if you
think about your marriage, you will
notice a dramatic difference between
the initial stage when you were in love
and a much duller or even angry
subsequent stage.

At this point, you and /or your spouse
might start asking, "Did I marry
the right person?" And as you and your
spouse reflect on the euphoria of
the love you once had,
you may begin to desire that experience
with someone else. This is when
marriages breakdown.
People blame their spouse for their
unhappiness and look outside their
marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all
shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the
most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work,a
hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or
abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT
lie outside your marriage.
It lies within it. I'm not saying that
you couldn't fall in love with
someone else. You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But
you'd be in the same situation a
few years later.
Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS
NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON;
IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU
FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or
spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER
just happen to you.
You can't "find" LASTING love. You have
to "make" it day in and day out.
That's why we have the
__expression "the labor of love."

Because it takes time, effort, and
energy . And most importantly, it takes
WISDOM .
You have to know WHAT TO DO to make
your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a
mystery. There are specific things
you can do
(with or without your spouse) to
succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the
universe (such as gravity), there
are also laws for relationships. ust as
the right diet and exercise
program makes you physically stronger,
certain habits in your relationship
WILL
make your marriage stronger. It's a
direct cause and effect.
If you know and apply the laws, the
results are predictable...you can
"make" love.

Love in marriage is indeed
a "decision"... Not just a feeling .

sofa king!

2008-01-14T03:38:00.001+08:00

trend.

2008-01-13T01:02:00.001+08:00

gettin married is now the trendiest thing.

last dec, my boy's classmate got married (no baby included)
end of this mth, his ex colleague's gettin married (no baby included)
ah tan's fren's gettin married nxt week
my ah ting gor gor gettin married in march (baby included!)

n i cut my hair.
bought a new swatch.
many fotos hvnt post.
enjoyed xmas.
cny's gon be boring. no leave.

happy new yr!

2008-01-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

not a very happy new yr for our ex-schmate thou.

http://www.straitstimes.com/Latest+News/Singapore/STIStory_191562.html

alex foo gettin married. gf preg. haha.

abondoned.

2007-12-19T01:29:00.000+08:00

my blog looks abondoned. no time to blog leh. always take fotos wana post here but always no time.. tml's offday, gtg for facials n xmas shoppin, no time to evn rest. sigh.

escape.

2007-12-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

im sick of livin in e city. ever since i came back frm msia, evryday i miss that peaceful quiet place. i wana stay thr forever.

impossible.

anyway, mill, its been a gr8 visit thr. his mum treated me v.well, place is good, food is good, i love that place! but i hate the creepy crawlies thr. SO BIG SIZED LA!

shitty tien: y army nv send u to one of those islands ah? u SO belong thr!

fun facts

2007-12-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

did u noe Singapore has got 63 small islands? TODAY THEN I NOE SIA! how interesting. read it all here.

today's the day!

2007-11-30T00:17:00.000+08:00

yay! im goin msia! hahahaha!

btw, xchng rate so high leh now.. 2.32

confused.

2007-11-23T02:45:00.000+08:00

if adam & eve were the 1st humans on earth,

HOW COME THEY LOOK MORE CIVILISED THAN CAVEMEN?

who came 1st?
chicken or egg?
cavemen or adam&eve?

fuiyoo.. or cavemen not frm their country?

so last time no countries n continents la? oni EARTH?

dinosaurs oni live in usa side of e earth isit? how come they nv find any remains in msia or china wan? den den got flyin dino ma, how come they nv fly to asia?

4 more days to my bday!
1 more week to holiday!

yay!!!

xD

2007-11-19T03:09:00.000+08:00

oj: relinked.

jus read phy's bloggie. hvnt seen her for sucha longggggggg longggggggg time! n we nv seem 2 hv time to chat w/each othr. shes always busy with sch n im never home.

so excited! its 19/11 now.

1 day to my off day.
3 days to his.
7 days to morn shift. woohoo!
8 days to my bday. yesh im turnin 22, i kept thinkin im turnin 23 cus since jan, i've been tellin ppl im 22 this yr.
11 days to the long bus ride!
12 days to finally gettin 2c his hometown!

anticipating!

man.. 3.30am n im feelin hungry. fug man.

happy offday.

2007-11-15T01:12:00.000+08:00

its been exactly a mth since i last updated my blog.

leave approved for 1-6dec. leavin on 30th nov to baby's hometown! =D

so.. w/in this mth, he moved hse & evrybody loves the place. ytd(tues) was our offday so monday night, afta his D&D n my shift, we went to his place. woke up early in e morn, wento e wet mrkt then had brunch n shopped @ amk hub for abit then stayed home watch tv. 3rd sis n him cooked dinner while i happily watch tv. haha. stayed ovr for e night agn n came home early this morn. v.fulfillin n relaxin offday. im glad. x)

our 6th mth.

2007-10-15T11:46:00.000+08:00

it was a lovely surprise he gave me. =)

the gift was what i said we'd go get e nxt time when i 1st saw it on our 1st time down to chinatown 2gthr.

yea, a pair of lovely chopsticks specially for the "cows". it comes with a cow chopstick stand in a very "chinese" box n it costed him freakin $68 jus for 2 pairs of chopsticks. yea ima very chinese person n chopsticks meant "shuang shuang dui dui".

work sucks. pay sucks. with this shitty pay, i still could survive n save some $. reality sank in when my cpf letter came. i gotta pay 100/mth for 6yrs to pay back my dad's cpf for my np sch fees. now im stressed out. gettin less than 800/mth afta cpf, im alrdy chewin on grass, n now, i gotta pay another additional 100.. FOR SIX FREAKIN YRS! someone pls donate some $ to me!

been SO tired lately. morn shifts sucks. nv get enuf slp. dnt evn gt time for dating. i miss my boy so much. thank god its noon shift for this 2 weeks n deepan called me up jus nw, invited me to his bday @ downtown east this weekend. hw sweet of him, for someone who hasnt contacted me since we left np. haha. radin'd be thr. missed him ALOT!

yea, gtg take my lunch now, losa places 2 go b4 i report for work at 3pm later. so busy sia. adios!

nike.

2007-10-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

we r siaos.

30/9 my boy bought me a nike jacket! =D
1/10 i bought myself a new yonex badminton racket.
2/10 i bought myself a nike shoe.
3/10 my boy bought me n himself nike shirts!
4/10 he bought both of us nike tees agn.
5/10 i bought myself another nike tee agn.

siao de. no choice. seems like nike's evrywhr, cant avoid nike shops when we go shoppin. n hes a fan of nike products.

almost. almost 6mths 2gthr. 7/10 will be our 6mths 2gthr. so happy. been more n more lovin day by day. im glad.

me: eh, jing so mafan hor, marry KL guy mus hold wedding in both sg n KL.
him: bobian wan ma.
me: eww. msia weddings so "lock kok" wan la. in restaurant de. if invite alot of ppl, got open in hotel ballroom anot?
him: no. they open in school halls cus schools r e oni places with halls = big space for many tables.
me: huh wtf. y ur place so laoya wan?
him: not oni my place. all ovr msia is liddat wan. sibeh warm n stuffy wan lor. if dec can get leave then u can go experience liao lor. (his fren's wedding in dec.)
me: wah lau eh. can i wear shorts n slippers anot?
him: no la siao. whr gt SO casual wan la.
me: nxt time can we dnt hold ours in the sch halls? if no $, at least restaurant la. can?
him: cannot.
me: u wan me "ru xiang shui su" ah? (follow e culture.)
him: yah lor. ur once in a lifetime experience leh.

omg. =( pls come for my "wedding in the school hall" ok ppl? i gib u seats nxt to the fans la. haha.

today took mrt, saw a preg woman sittin down. ic her tummy, reminds me of..

my tummy when im sittin down.

fuck.

im so fat.

n i cant stop eatin.

oh fuckin hell.

nxt mth,

MY 22ND BIRTHDAY LEH! U ALL PREPARE WT FOR ME?

haha. ok la, my boy wants me to go slp early. g'nite ppl. bye!

i've never been to me.

2007-09-24T02:47:00.000+08:00

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you.....

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies....

Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me

[spoken]
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love......

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady......
I've been to paradise, (I've been to paradise)
But I've never been to me

(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Neice and the isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to cryin' for unborn children that might have made me complete)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me

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seems like this song wants to remind us of our role as women. =/

so bored. i miss my baby. evn seeing him evryday still dnt seem enuf. will we still b liddat in a yr's time? i wish we will n he confidently said we'll be like this forever.

ytd was my offday but pretty busy. stayed ovr at baby's place on fri nite n came home in e morn, shower n went for dimsum with parents. the famous red star at chin swee, i oni liked the siew mai. they ordered 'da bao' i tot was those pork buns like we usually have, who knows..

ok la, i sua ku nv see DA BAO b4 ok!

went home, did some chores, took a nap, went down ~~the oriental~~ the mandarin oriental to buy mooncake. take note, its no longer "THE ORIENTAL" (ORSIN) it had restored its rightful name "THE MANDARIN ORIENTAL" (MO) alrdy. yes i was talkin abt e mooncakes, they were good lor. e skin was nice, nicer than wt i had frm e hotel im workin now. i like the champagne one! =) but e box sibeh ugly la.

in e evening met up with cousins. YK, jane, KZ n his new gf. my boy n YK got along pretty well. im glad =) dined at 211cafe, food was avg, price was normal n service was below avg. ambience was supposed 2b above avg but damn the 2 smokers in our grp, we had to take smokin area seats which were well lilted with lights & it was HOT lah!

y we nv take fotos ah? i also duno. i was too hungry cus i oni had dim sum for e whole day n it was 8pm+ when we rched. busy eatin, 4gt take fotos la.

dear all,

2007-09-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

im collectin perfume & alcoholic drinks bottles. if u've got one that u dnt want, PLS KEEP FOR ME OK? =D

jus bought a miniature mont blanc guy's perfume today. wana get dad to finish it up then i can keep ^^

late.

2007-09-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

was late for work today, for an hr!

e whole of last week, been slpin ovr at baby's place n my place on alt days. 1 day we'd be at my place, then his place e nxt. so used to hvin him ard, this week we'r workin different shifts, no time to be 2gthr so i guess fallin aslp wud be a lil harder. haha.

last wed(5/9) went back oosh with baby n his colleague louis. intention was to visit evrybody espec our beloved chef andy, ended up, andy got us a table n treated us to dinner! how sweet of him! the guys loved e place. who wouldnt? beautiful place. came back my place afta dat.

thurs night, went ktv-ing with 3rd sis n aunt till 2am. had fun! :D

fri was our 5th mth 2gthr =D was my offday n i seriously dnt rmb whr we went. haha.

ytd, 9/9, brought him to holland v for e 1st time. wento holland ave for fish head beehoon, met my cousin along with his frens n our sec sch PE teacher. brought him ard holland v & decided we'll come for dinner one day with louis at e 211cafe. came back my place n chatted till almost 1am on compeition stuff. been a gd week. loves.

offday, jb.

2007-08-28T23:10:00.001+08:00

offday today. baby stayed over at my place last nite, rained heavily this morn, we left e house at 12pm+ to go jb. our 1st time thr 2gthr =D

watched ratatouille. it costed so cheap to watch movies ovr thr! i wana go watch movie thr agn. haha. he bought me a softoy m'room! loves.

n omg la. my dad has always been v.foul mouthed n SELDOM, RARELY, praise someone. he told me he likes my boy! he'd never liked any of my exs! he said my boy's hardworkin n stuff like that, the 1st time he met my boy, he said he's 'shun yan' ^^ mum also praised him. that's gd news. meanin i'll hv less naggings frm them, they'r happy, im happy, baby's happy. jojo's happy too. haha.

alrite, hvin headaches n sorethroat n cough. =(

off to bed now. adios ppl! n thanks to those who checked on my blog evn thou i hvnt blogged for sucha long time + always post boliao posts now. yes shingo, i've read ur comments! =D

my improvements.

2007-08-27T02:26:00.000+08:00

comparing my previous works n now, i gotta say, im proud of myself.

in march, the 1st time i learnt to write using choc.

after this, i didnt write nor practise anymore. totally ZERO.

last week, i wrote for the 2nd time.

big difference? i watched n learn. i jus watched how my boy writes n i follow. i didnt practise at all. honest!

jus in apr, i deco like this

now, in aug, i deco like this

i wana practise writing till i attain my boy's standard,

man.. am i proud of my improvements. lil practise but improved alot, jus by watchin.

im not so dumb afterall.

e last time i cried.

2007-08-11T03:05:00.000+08:00

haha. was postin bulletins on f'ster n thr's this one qtn: when was e last time u cried.

i dnt rmb. i kept tinkin n tinkin, now i tink, was e time i went penang, i missed my boy so much, i cried ovr e fone.

fuk la. ytd so scared la. i realised evrynite afta i off e lights n closed my room door, thr's bangin sounds on my door, like someone tryin to come in.. den i turned on e lights, went out to check, parents slpin, no wind blowin.
i sat on my bed, lights on, no sound. it oni happen when i turn off e lights. fukin scary. i dnt dare open e door n slp either. ltr see sth how?
nw ok liao. i asked dad for tailsman. he put one on my room door n one on my bed.

unbelievable.

2007-08-10T02:27:00.000+08:00

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

its been a long time.

2007-08-10T02:05:00.000+08:00

been MIA for so long.

was lookin thru my CNY fotos. how MUCH i've grown! alrdy fat liao, now lagi fatter la! cant evn hide my fat tummy for abit. but my hair like nv grow at all leh. tmd.

updates:

got job on 2nd day of jobhunt.
baby finished his last day of work on last fri.
i strted my new job on monday, 2.5days of orientation.

tues, 7/8
our 4th mth 2gthr. ^^

wed, 8/8
baby's 1st day of work, went for brkfast with him n took mrt to work 2gthr.
finished orientation n strted 1/2 day of work.
my last place's benefits' were way better.
but this kitchen's much much bigger n much more ppl workin.
has an ice cream room with 2 ice cream machines, previous room had none of these.
has an orientation fren in e same kitchen as me, HIS name's wai wai. yes, its a guy.
waited for baby to knock off, went for dinner 2gthr n talked abt our day.
1st day of work nia, alot to complain abt. haha. well, no doubt both our places were way better than our previous.

thurs, 9/8
very sweet of my chef to gime off on national day.
baby came ovr afta work. watched ndp on tv with family, nice leh this year's!
"u all msia ndp got wat?"
"i duno."
"got show on tv?"
"got. but i nv watch."
"nv in ur life?"
"no lah. see ***s only."
haha.

was browsing thru f'ster n it really irks me how guys react/behave when they see pretty girls on f'ster. they will "por" e girl, sound like they've nv seen pretty girls b4. like hw e nxt door kitchen guys behave when they come ovr to look for my pretty colleague. they dnt behave like humsup loe, they behave more like dogs. i duno hw 2 describe but i tink its "scoop so low to please her" hope my english doesnt fail me.

its not im jealous that all e attention's on her but it really digusts me 2c them behavin like that. its not 1 or 2 of them, its e whole swamp of them comin ovr, talkin 2 her, help her do work, its like they'r rdy to eat shiat if she commands them to. shud i say, no dignity?

well, cant blame em eh? most of em ovr 25 or near 30s, all unattached, unmarried, how can they not drool when they see pretty girl? but at least save a lil face for urself lah guys. fuiyoooo.. evn my sibeh despo shitty tien also dnt behave liddat la..

well..

we'll nv noe how he'll behave if..

by 25, hes still like now..

NO! hes disgusting enuf lor. i dnt wana see him gettin disgustin-ier.

SHITTY TIEN PLS QUICK GO GET URSELF A GF OK!

or at least, lose ur virginity b4 25 can?

hahahahahahaha!

alrites. time for bed. noon shift tml. rest more, learn more. =D

adios ppl!

From The Mail.

2007-07-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television."

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There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up a & discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

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This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.

Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, "Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

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"Good Life starts only when you stop wanting a better One"

" Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away "

=)

2007-07-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

haha. colleague's decoration.

ivan made bread for me as my farewell pressie. how sweet! =D

mc agn.

2007-07-15T17:58:00.000+08:00

mc agn today. wento work with sore throat, noon time, strted hvin nerve pulls at e back of my neck, feelin feverish.. cudnt take it, wento c doc durin lunch time, gt mc, finished up my work, came home. sigh. so much incomplete work.

job hunting.

2007-07-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

went job hunting on tues. interviewed at one of e 5stars hotel, e asst chef was so fuuuuuuked up. sucky place anyway. wento check out anothr hotel's cake counter, e chef's very famous de. duno y, e cake all so-so lookin nia. his works aint supposed to look liddat according to baby n jing. well, i believe them cus he's one of baby's sifu, lookin at e disciple's work, his work shud be v.good.

wento anothr 5star hotel along tangs, worst. 1 type of garnish, use on many different flavours of cake, sumore put em side by side! noob like me also know not to do this kinda thing. how stupid.

wento shangri-la to look for siang. amazed by shang's cake counter. sibeh swee. homemade pralines, wedding cakes, beautiful deco, all so appetite-whetting. man.. i wana work at shang too!

stupid peihwa decided to stayed in e company. evryday see her go to work in tears. how to work liddat? fuked up place, fuked up management.

went bugis jalan jalan then walked to suntec, sat at e fountain of wealth, fell aslp. haha! so sleepy la both of us. my 2nd time watchin e fountain show. his 1st. my 1st was alone, while makin calls to duno who la, cus i didnt feel like goin home that day. sucha lomantic evening. tehehehe.

watched harry potter with his two sis at marina sq. harry potter sucks! i hate the so-obvious-its-got-continuation ending. feels like havin a meal w/o dessert. so, imcomplete, so unsatisfyin. damnit. but i had cheese hotdogs with nachos cheese. YUM! i so very love cheese. n i had pasta mania baked rice. how "tummy-satisfyin"..

mc today. gastric pain n headache. evn on mc also mus tink of ordering list n functions. jo's hvin headaches ovr these functions too. she discusses with me ovr the functions while both our seniors dnt bother. its not our responsibility leh. our seniors are snakes cum lousy asses. damnit. thank god we'r workin with each othr, constantly helpin each othr. hope to work with her agn in nxt company! tink her blood pressure will rise afta i leave. my bo-chup senior is makin her blood boil enuf now.

vene's back today. we'll be meetin shitty later.

i miss my boy.
so much.
i wana hold his hand.
i wana hug him.

its gr8 workin 2gthr with him.
can c him evryday,
he takes good care of me.
makes sure i take my meals else he'll buy for me, nag me to take my lunch b4 cont'd work,
wraps my wounds for me when i've got cuts,
carry stuff for me,
teaches me,
explain theories of bakin,
helps me when im workin alone n runnin like chicken,
comfort me when im hvin a bad workin day.

i love him, so very much.

people in love, feels fortunate all e time. im one of them.

being with someone of e same line, same passion, same character, really does make relationships better.

jobless.

2007-07-10T19:48:00.001+08:00

i will be jobless on 27th july.

baby will be jobless on 3rd aug.

kent will be jobless on 16th july.

lijing will be jobless on 15th july.

pei hwa served her last day today.

5 jobless ppl, yet we'r so happy.

shoulder feels lighter now.

head doesnt ache as much alrdy.

i love my resignation letter.

muacks!

work sux.

2007-07-03T22:36:00.001+08:00

i wana resign.

27th june 2007.

2007-06-27T02:03:00.000+08:00

frm e mail:

LITTLE OLD LADY

A young man shopping in a supermarket noticed a little old lady following him around. If he stopped, she stopped. Furthermore, she kept staring at him. She finally overtook him at the checkout, and she turned to him and said "I hope I haven't made you feel ill at ease;it's just that you look so much like my late son." He answered, "That's okay."

"I know it's silly, but if you'd call out "Good bye, Mom" as I leave the store, it would make me feel so happy." She then went through the checkout,the man called out, "Goodbye, Mom." The little old lady waved, and smiled back at him.

Pleased that he had brought a little sunshine into someone's day, he went to pay for his groceries.

"That comes to $121.85," said the clerk. "How come so much .. I only bought 5 items.." The clerk replied, "Yeah, but your Mother said you'd be paying for her things too."

Don't trust little Old Ladies!!!

hahahahaha! ytd was offday. stayed home e whole day. sibeh sian. today had a happy day at work cus e stupid restaurant i was inchrge of, was closed for dinner so i didnt have to prepare items for them. now im readin colleague's blog n chattin with han arsehole.

siang: life's liddat. 1 day happy, 1 week bored & that 1 day, is offday.

hahahahaha. how true.

friday night. ex staffs meetup at newton. wonder who'll be thr. nxt monday, back to sch for cert, finally.

work sucks.

2007-06-23T02:53:00.000+08:00

duno lah. the da jie i hate resigned today. gd la, i no need headache ovr her yet, means i gotta work alone. if they aint gon put someone to work with me, i'll be nxt to leave la. come aug, baby wud be goin KL 2b jing da jie's chosen assistant. for a week. i wana go too man.. good exposure but duno can get leave anot.

langkawi.

his backyard.

he misses me, evn in langkawi.

sibeh sian. goin to bed alrdy. so tired, so bored. sigh.

5days leave.

2007-06-22T00:46:00.001+08:00

yep. today is e last day of my 5days leave. wento penang with mum. nth much. so many temples. im more interested in mountains la. spent RM100 on hp credits topup alone. been callin baby alot. long conversations at nite. missed him loads. get 2c him later! hes on e coach comin back to sg right now =D

sunrise! beautiful la!!!

bought nth. oni some local biscuits n RM200 of undergarments. that addiction's actin up agn. damnit.

tiring.

2007-06-15T01:35:00.000+08:00

so stressed out. chng of da jie. last time work with that da jie, evryday stressed cus she v.fierce, scared she scold me. now this new da jie, i also stressed cus shes darn stupid, i need to do all the thinkin for her to prevent her frm gettin arrowed by othr chefs. shes darn stupid lor. evn puttin up a notice, also ask me if use scotchtape or punch a hole to hang! so dumb rite?

anyway.

frm my love, to me. on 5th june 2007. =)

g'nite.

woah boy!

2007-06-10T04:44:00.000+08:00

its been a week since i last blogged! been so busy omg.

work work work. tues offday. wento e zoo with baby! so happy la. so many many yrs nv go zoo liao. 1st time in my 21yrs life, ic a moo moo in real! soooooo fukin happy la. can touch sumore. didnt expect it 2b so big! it went MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! so loud!!! scared a baby till he cried. haha.

den touched horsey n goat too! so happy! n omg saw kangaroo la! *boink boink boink* ke ai lorrrrrrrr!!

n omg i saw emu in real!

me: hey! i saw an emu in e zoo that day leh! i 1st time see leh!
emmulin: fuk u la!

hahahahaha!

den saw your siblings leh!

den i 4gt wt this bear's called.

so cute!

wah.. like fairyland hor?

such beautiful scenery we hv frm e zoo..

donkey donkey!

i saw this particular donkey

n i said "hey! his hair looks like urs!"

staff nite fotos!

work aint goin v.smooth for me. chng of management. sians. 5am alrdy! time for bed!

u shud be SO jealous of me.

2007-06-03T03:14:00.000+08:00

thursday.

chef asked my fatboy to show him sugar artpiece cus he heard that my boy knows how to do.

he presented with this.

it may seem nth much but u gotta mould it while its freakin hot. now thats tuff. whole kitchen only chef n fatboy knows hw 2 do sugar. li hai ba my boy.. evn those positions above him de also duno hw 2 do leh.. evn my dajie also duno.. looks like fun but im still more interested in choc!

chef made a beautiful swan.

n so i made noise tellin fatboy that i wan a butterfly. he said its ez 2 make but he strted makin anothr rose.

i made alot of noise cus i wanted butterfly n not rose. i demanded for butterfly BY 2NITE, it was alrdy 11pm, knock off alrdy. despite knowin that he gotta waste $ on cabfare if he stays on, he stayed on n made me a butterfly with my name on it! i didnt really mean it when i said by 2nite.. so silly of him. yet so sweet.. awww... n his rationale of makin e rose instead of butterfly? cus rose is more hardwork. so nw u shud be SO jealous of me right? hahahaha.

looks more like tinkerbell leh.

oh my silly boy.. smilin like sor lan.. hahahaha.

friday.

dragged to go staff night. 2nd D&D of e yr. 1st was in feb. went afta work at 11pm, 1am it ended n we went back up kitchen to entertain e bakers. stayed all e way till 6am!

e sor hai who dragged us thr.

my love.

gary, fatty n skinny koon.

time for bed now. nites ppl.

i've gt 5days leave. wana go holiday but dnt hv much $. prolly go msia ba. any gd suggestions?

sentosa with my love.

2007-05-30T03:03:00.000+08:00

our 1st visit 2gthr to sentosa!

he called me up at 12pm+ n it was rainin heavily at my place. he said its sunny ovr at e south part, his sis was alrdy thr, asked if i still wana join em anot. i said i wana slp in more. woke at 2pm, joined them afta dat. met up w/them at siloso beach.had some time alone w/o his sis, walked ard.. felt so happy, he said we hvnt been out 2gthr for a long time alrdy. well, we've been out 2gthr many times but all w/o e sun. today we'r out 2gthr agn in e sun. happy la! wento rent bike, chatted with his 2 sis while hvin delifrance..

3rd sis: ur eyelash so long yet dnt curl, all pointin dnwards de, wun blk ur view meh?

hahahahahaha!

returned bikes n headed for underwater world. hvnt been thr for so so so many yrs! e last time i was thr, underwater world was e latest attraction in sentosa, dats like pri sch la!

saw huge turtles outside e entrance!

i saw a baby peacock followin its daddy ard e place! so cute la! really will follow, wun anyhow run de! so ke aiiiiii!!!

we went in while his sis rested outside. they've been thr b4 alrdy.

e fishes thr fukin scary la. all so big de. den e teeth hor.. fuiyoooo scary sia. i was full of WOWs la.
him: all these turtles, msia also gt.. msian wt turtle also hv.. sg dnt hv de..
me: who said sg dnt hv?!
him: sg gt wat?
me(points 2 myself): sua ku loh..
really la. i like sua ku. evrythin nv see b4. see fish also so facinated.

so big sia.

mouth of croc.

i tink its called fiddlecrab. 1 claw nia! so cool!

layin eggs. i tink.

unclear pix. i tink was some hairylookin crab.

omg hermit crab! so big so scary la!

pufferfish!

sea angel, i tink frm antarctica.

some ugly fish.

most familiar stingray. fukin big!

spider crab i tink.

miniature sharks.

afta underwater world, walked ard while waitin for e musical fountain thing to strt.

wento watch that musical fountain thing. nice la but nt v.impressive. mayb i duno hw 2 appreciate ba.

went outram for steamboat afta that! yummy loh! had a fun filled day! my 1st bf who went tourist attraction place with me loh! haha. n tourist attraction, museum doesnt count alrite? haha. ooh so in luv so in luv.. haha. *grins happily* soon 2b 2nd mth, still hvin honeymoon period, nt bad la. feelin indescribe-able xinfu-ness nw ^^

nxt door kitchen jio us tml nite go MOS. dnt tink we'r goin ba. bt our gao mei(tall girl) wana go leh.. if we dnt go, she wun go.. tink we'll brg her to shanghai jazz on thurs or fri ba. sat nite mayb meetin chef roy! sunday nite meetin radin! happy la~!

sleepy.

2007-05-29T05:01:00.000+08:00

sunday's supposed 2b offday but since ping left n we've gt so much things 2do, i had no offday. off in lieu. baby stayed ovr at my place for e 1st time. he was darn tired. went for lunch b4 reporting to work today(monday). afta work went marina sq kbox cus its his sis' bday n we'r goin sentosa tml! we'r both on off! ^^ yep. pointless entry. adios!

so cool!

2007-05-26T05:02:00.000+08:00

wow i jus found out abt this mag, save.our.trees magazine. the april issue got my ex colleague pascale! how cool! hahahaha. oh yea n july's FHM has got my another ex colleague magdalene who starred in ch5's after hours!

today's been a hectic day. ping ping submitted resignated letter. sigh.

thank god im workin nite shifts this 2 weeks. last 2 weeks i worked morn shift, super stonned. they call me the owl. then they asked "how does an owl(mao tou yin) sound?" knn i heard the 1st word 'mao' i went meow. they'r still luffin at me till today. then there's this menu sayin 'no nuts' so we cant use nut la. da jie asked me to go get dehydrated coconut, i asked "coconut not nut meh?" knn morn shifts make me gong-ier than usual.

4 nights.

2007-05-25T02:57:00.000+08:00

patient's food last week. yum!

yep. hvnt been home for 4 nights. got this function goin on where ppl had to report at 5am. lucky me, im not involved, my reporting time is 3pm ^^ baby kena 5am shift la. so, very nice of e company, to provide each kitchen department a room to stay. 1st two nights, e room was only occupied by baby & i. 3rd n 4th day, anothr 4 colleagues joined us. requested for xtra bed n played like mad, fightin, laughin, cup noodles-ing, chattin n fightin ovr e bathroom.felt so much like chalet.

cat: "if u cant slp, jus tell urself 'im slpin in a 5star hotel.. 5star hotel.. 5star hotel..' soon u'll fall aslp."

haha wat crap!

we saw this at e baker side b4 we left. hahaha. looks like shit la! chao ta bread!

1st thing i did when i went in e room.

wt facinates us most

posh bathroom.

baby: "wah lau, e room bigger than KL shang's room la!"

frm e balcony..

they provided that, i duno wt u call that.. robe? i so short la, wear liao like will trip ovr anytime.

my fat prince watchin tv with his rambutan hair.

tues, 10am+, i was slpin soundly when baby woke me up. he was in half U. he was supposed 2b workin at that hr. with a worried face, he said

"i tot wat happened 2u!"
"huh?"
"check ur hp.."

omg. 17missed calls!

"ping's on mc. jing wants u to go down early to help. we all tried callin ur hp but u didnt ans, i rang e doorbell, u didnt open e door. i had to ask e hsekeepin to open e door. i tot wt happened 2u.. y u slp like pig liddat?"

that worried look on his face.. awwwww...

i not pig ok. my hp spoil no sound. the doorbell didnt ring cus i set to DND mode, ring thousand times also no sound de.

ytd nite(wed), we ordered pizza hut to the room! haha so fun la! baby n i walked ovr to marina sq intendin to play pool but it appears that we were too late. closed for e day. we walked ovr to esplanade n sat thr, chattin. he told me so much abt his hometown. I WANA GO TOO!!! kampong sounds fun lor! n he told me abt wt fruits grow on wt cus im always laughed at by othrs jus cus i duno wt fruits grow on wt. i said s'berries grows on tress. they kept luffin at me. kao eh. evrythin also duno. i wana go botanic gdns liao. sep he might be brgin me back home. yay! sounds like fun!

ytd, went marina mandarin hotel to borrow ice cream machine. da jie's hubby brought us ard to look at e different kitchens n outlets. beautiful place but their poolside aint as nice as ours. ours is really beautiful. nice settings n view. ppl like deb shud come dine, i cud go ovr n say hi too cus its jus opposite my kitchen. haha.

met sushi guy ah lai at MM hotel. he felt so surprised i was thr too. too bad it wasnt ming ming. missed that boy!

nth much to do at nite so da jie taught me to make some simple choc art. choc roses! chocs make ppl happy not jus by eatin, playin with choc makes one happy too!

on e worktable. with loose shavings n failed works.

baby helped me took em aside n arranged nicely.

this morn, they used it for deco! *sense of satisfaction.*

baby got bored of playin with the chocs, he strted carving.

not v.nice but at least i have, u have anot? haha.

he used to carve but forgot how to le. been tryin to recall tis few days.

he was so tired last nite, w/in seconds, he fell aslp.

see the space? gf run away alrdy also duno. soooo tired.

today, went ovr MM agn. baby accompanied me thr. taught me how to see if the ice cream's ready anot. =)

chatted with sandra in tv lounge.

her: "hw's u & ur boy?"
me: "liddat lor. good lor."
her: "eva tot of marriage?"
me: "siao ah? less than 2mths nia tink of wt marriage? moreovr, tink so much also no use. u'll nv noe wt will happen. if its meant 2b, it will be."
her: "yar true. good la. some girls are like, if its meant 2b, it mus be."

she mus be tinkin alot ba. caught in a complicated relationship.

been a week.

2007-05-19T02:31:00.000+08:00

its been a week since i last updated here. been a happy week thou nv go out..

saturday.
offday. stayed home whole day till 1pm, went for facial appt, shopped alone at plaza, bought shampoo n stuff to keep in locker, bought vit C pills.. been fallin sick quite often lately.. wento library, read some books on pastry.. that day, life feels so fukin good. shoppin n goin library alone, away frm all the work n rushin for time.. it really felt gr8. mum n dad went for a break 2gthr for few days. baby came ovr to accompany me. met him at plaza afta he knocked off. wento supermrkt 2gthr n he specially chose food for his sick girl. went home n he cooked for me! =D v.nice lor. jus like my mum's! =D sibeh happy la. fish, soup, veg, meat.. evrythin! yum!!! watched tv n wento bed. wt a happy day i had. *feels so fortunated n loved.*

sunday.
he wento work alone cus he was workin 7am n i was 10am. so i slept in longer. afta work, took cab back with da jie, ping n my boy. both were extremely tired, evn b4 i finished bathin, he was alrdy snoring on e bed alrdy. hahahaha.

monday.
wento work 2gthr bt he was workin noon so he went back his own home to shower n chng clothes b4 reporting to work. yep, nth much, went home afta work agn. slp n its a new day agn. workin life.. sigh..

tuesday.
mum n dad came back. wanted to go airport fetch em but work la.. so went home afta work, they were home alrdy lor. nth much.

wednesday.
worked till 12am. no bus, didnt wana take cab, wento baby's place cus his bus service till 1am.

thursday.
wento work 2gthr. he works at 3pm but reported at 11am+ to accompany n help me. how sweet. *hugs* stayed ovr at his place agn cus fri is OUR offday! but we stayed for work till 3am+ then took cab home la. sibeh sibeh tired lor. almost lost my wallet in e toilet. luckily banquet staff found it n returned to security. e security guard knows me n he called my department asked me go retrieve. phew. 3rd time liao leh! wah kao this wallet so sway. nv lost a wallet in my life b4. dino called me. she was drunk. told me nonsense n asked me help her do stupid stuff. siao one. afta work so tired alrdy, hp low batt, she still ask me do nonsense. say i dnt care abt my ji tui.. si drunkard anyhow say things..

friday.
slept till noon, lazed for hours, kept fallin aslp. i kept sleep talkin to him. its not the 1st time! 1st time, i kept sayin "chocolate" when he tried to wake me up. coincidentally, that day, ping kept sleep talkin "tiramisu" to her bf too! hahahaha. 2nd time was on the phone, i said "take the things away" n he was like huh???? hahahaha. this morn i rmb tellin him sth abt cartoon. haha. went for lunch/dinner near his place. so nice la the chicky rice! n so cheap omfg! walked ard e neighbourhood, nice place! reminds me of dover.. aww.. helped him moved to his aunt's place then off we went to marina sq to meet his sis for movie. blade of glory. funny movie la! nice nice! took mrt home n now, im goin to bed. haha. g'nite ppl. =)

my da jie.

2007-05-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

the chef leadin my ala carte team, we call her da jie. shes only 24 this yr. n i searched on net, look wt i found..

the 2nd one.. nt bad ah.. gt go competition one sumre ok.. get gold de leh..

2007-05-12T00:58:00.000+08:00

aiyo so busy evryday. work n work n work till ytd got fever. stayed ovr at baby's place on mon, tues, fri nite sia. ic him more than ic my parents.. ytd i rched his place, i collapsed on e bed n fell aslp. scared him sia. had bad headache, flu n fever. fever till this morn, kns heavy rain sumore in e morn. today worked 8am - 11pm sia. wana die. nv eat dinner sumore. work work work n die fast. offday tml(saturday) yay! off with baby nxt wednesday. yay! g'nite ppl. im dyin soon sia. sibeh tired.

omg la, my da jie's cousin kena a virus atk, bell's palsy. go read up on it. fukin scary. it always strts with a flu. fuk. i gt flu lor.

my boy's bday.

2007-05-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

yep. its my boy's bday today n we went for spiderman3 midnite movie last nite. i almost fell aslp sia. sibeh tired. worked frm 7am-11pm. happy la. learnt to play with chocs. today's my offday. was with e bday boy till almost 4pm then headed to JE to meet parents, visit granny then off to boat quay thai smile for dinner. sibeh sibeh tired la this week. aihs.

wed nite, left work at abt 8pm+ then wento marina sq to shop alone for his bday pressie. went home afta that.

thurs nite. he offered to send me home afta work. rch hm almost 1am liao. i hate long bus rides.

fri nite. left work early. abt 7pm. went home watch dvd till fell aslp.

sat nite. spiderman3, pool, his place.

tiring week. evryday work work work, not much time left for family, frens n paktor.

now, blogger hvin prob. cant evn chng color of e font. tmd. finally today can do e laundry.

sick.

2007-05-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

so many days nv update liao sia. stressed out at work. cat, baby & i are all unhappy abt 1 new colleague. irresponsible arse. nvm. wun be workin with him alrdy. nxt monday onwards i'll be transferred to anothr team alrdy. doin ala carte stuff. woohoo. better mentor, sth im more interested but also more pressure on that side. but i cud also get same offday as baby cus we'r on different team! =D

today gt new colleague, very cute lookin girl!! v.sweet smile n her eyes.. awww.. but skinny like matchstick.

Friday 27.04.07

wento meet baby at citylink. waited for him to knock off & met guan to pass him back his stuff. thxs for leadin me all e way to west coast ya. went for supper with yip n choy.

Saturday 28.04.07

i seriously dnt rmb e details of this day. haha.

Sunday 29.04.07

baby worked morn n went home afta work. came back again at night to fetch me afta work. off we went to his place. worked morn e nxt day. didnt hv enuf slp cus by e time we rch his place, alrdy 2am+

monday 30.04.07

i worked morn. wanted to die. stayed to help out all the way till 11pm n went for drinks with baby & cat till 2am+. baby came to my place n we chatted till 5am+, i called to report mc n we contd chattin till morn then he went home. sibeh dulan that new colleague dats y wento get mc, let him die workin alone. but he heng. gt othr ppl scheduled for work which i didnt realised. but i was also sick la. cough, sore throat, cold..

tues 1.05.07

labour day. baby off, im on mc. my 1st visit to amk hub. then to his place to customise our new recipe books. came home to slp n worked morn agn.

nth much. jus wana jot down my daily stuff dats all. keep 4gettin whr i've been n wat i've been doin. sigh. work work work. i love my job. i love my boy. i love my family. i love my life. n now, my most beloved, is my bed. its 12.35am. gotta wake at 5am. off to bed now. nites ppl.

offday 27.04.07

2007-04-27T15:38:00.000+08:00

woke at 1pm, now its almost 4pm.

usually offdays i wud do:

laundry - check. jus did it few days ago.
facial - check. replaced with mask at home.
self groomin - check. plucked evry single unslightly hair off.
lunch with myself - check. pasta yum!

usually all these wud hv taken up my whole day. today, i wake 3hrs nia, all these are done leh. nth to do now. he hasnt knock off, duno wat time meetin me, yip n choy hvnt book out yet, duno wat time meetin up.. now rot at home nia. so sian! oh yea, left with washin up the dishes n bathin.

noticing the date today, its the 27th. which means..

PAYDAY TONIGHT MIDNIGHT! YAY!

and 20th day we'r 2gthr. 20days only ah? how come like so many things happened w/in 20days sia. bobians. work 2gthr, ic him more than ic my parents sia.

so sian. nth to do. no mood to watch vcds also. all i wan is to watch movie in cinemas now.

*carries jojo to sit on my lap*

bored.

lets see..

blog abt sth equally boring.

how alike are we.

	Her	Him
Loves chicken rice.	Hell yes!	Yes yes!
Has gastric pain.	Yep	Yep
Been a bartender/barmaid.	Yep	Yep
Only child.	Yep	No. only son thou
Takes celery.	NO!	Yep
Has a pet dog.	Yep	Passed away
Born in 1985.	Yep	Yep
Loves singing.	Yep	Very
Shortie.	Yep	Yep
Fatty.	Yep	Kinda
Loves veg > meat.	Yep	Loves balance
Smokes.	Nope	Used to
Drink.	Cutting down	Rarely
Speaks Cantonese.	Learning	My sifu
Speaks Teochew.	Yep	Im better
Speaks thai.	Not at all	Fluent
Speaks hainanese.	My own dialect but knows no shit	Little
Speaks hokkien.	½ bucket of water	Main dialect
Speaks malay.	Very very tinny bit	Yep
Drives.	Yep	Yep
Rides.	Nope	Yep
Listens Korean songs.	Nope	Yep
Listens thai songs.	Little	Nope
Attained diploma.	Yep	Yep
Fav sportswear brand.	Adidas	Nike

so boliao. hahahahahaha. guys who speak cantonese turns me on la. n i love guys with gd english/chinese. hes gd in chinese. <3

jo's still sittin on my lap. ^^

4.01pm so bored so bored! i wana go longpia la so sian.

wow!

2007-04-27T04:13:00.000+08:00

evrybody check this out:

julius truffles.com
julius truffles' blog

swee oh! both e guy n e food looks equally delicious. *slurp* haha.

my fat boy's offday today. he made his 1st trip to jb to send $ back home for his mum, alone. surprisingly for a msian who travelled all the way frm perlis to sg, hvnt been to jb/johor b4.

miss him loads. <3

so tired. thank god its offday later(friday).

范逸臣's song, 放生, very nice. sad song. abt breakup. i wana learn this song sia.

曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火　燃烧过你和我
如今沈默加上沈默更沈默　再没有什舍不得

ytd's 1st visit to marina sq kbox, im not a ktv regular la but been to chinatown, cineleisure n marina sq branch, i tink marina sq has e best room design but somehow i feel e rooms aint v.conducive cus u can hear e ppl next door very clearly. u gotta on ur music so loud that u cant hear ur own voice la. chinatown de gt no aircon lor! cus its centralised de, e blardie buildin off aircon, u get sauna ktv. cine, no complaints abt it. =D

i love ktv-ing with him cus i get to choose all e songs i wan him to sing n he'll sing it all for me! evn till his throat sores. hes hvin cough n throat's abit sore bt sang for me for an hr ytd till his voice chnged. omg haha. n he looks simply charming when hes singin la! well, beauty is in e eye of e beholder la.

ex bar mgr douglas added me to msn. wat a surprise. haha. he jus msn-ed me asked hw im doin. x)

fat boy's bday nxt week. cat asked to go jb 2gthr nxt week. serene asked to go out for makan nxt week. nxt week nxt week. so busy la nxt week! then gotta arrange to meetup with peggy they all also. long time no see. payday alrdy, mus find them liao. shitty tien also. deb also la! at least i saw venice few weeks ago. phy's bday also comin soon, gotta go dinner, n so so so so many great movies comin out! wah lau, so many events, so lil time, so lil $. sians.

now gotta go tink of wt to get for him for his bday.

sth im proud to announce: i cut down on drinkin ALOT! haha. for these few weeks, i oni had a total of less than 2 glasses of alcohol! used to drink evry few nights rmb? so proud of myself for stoppin the late nights. =D well, i still do go out till late now but healthy late nights alrite. non alcohol nights. x)

yes yes! late dinner/supper with choy n yip 2nite! offday but no plans yet. fat boy's workin morn shift but i bet hes too tired to accompany me ltr. oni an hr of slp then off to work, jus like hw i used 2b when i was scheduled to work morns. i hate morn shifts.

i tink god's been pretty fair to me. i aint blessed with $ but im blessed with many othr good things in life. im blessed with a lovin family, a roof over my head n a job. i've repeated this many times but this time, i realised im blessed with sth evn more special.

my 2nd bf, Z, i was the one who liked him 1st. i wanted him, i got him.
afta we broke up, i said , i wana get a bf who's older than i am cus he can take better care of me. Z wished me luck & i DID get a guy who's 4yrs older than i am, G.
we broke up. i said, my next bf's gotta be a msian. G said i can easily find one in my line.
i got myself this fat boy now. msian.

god blesses me with guys who meets the criteria im lookin for. ilu god. haha.

eh god, my nxt bf, i wan one with looks like juraimie dawood, voice of jj, rich like darryl goh n treats me sibeh good. can anot? haha.

see, last time still quite thin

now,

FAT BOY!

i tink he come sg v.gd life.. go home his mum sure v.happy see the son become so fat, hvin gd life in sg.

happy day!

2007-04-26T05:04:00.000+08:00

met yuan at 12pm, wento parklane for chicky rice! yum! made his 1st visit to suntec (hes only been here for 2-3mths nia.) shopped till time for work, work n work, till 12.30am, since gotta take cab, we went for ktv at marina sq till 3am then off to fernando's to meet jane. then by e time i rch home, alrdy near 5am. so tired.

new colleague today, pei wah.

yuan: pei wah, u see cindy look like wat country ppl?
pei wah: penang ba..
serene: yah lor, when i 1st came, i also tot u msian leh.

argh!!!!!

pointless entry. meetin yip n choy on fri nite for supper. long time no see.

time for bed now. bt b4 that, mus post mushy foto like tien always do. dnt tink only u got ok cb!

i sibeh fair, he sibeh tanned.

rainy night. great for slpin.

因祸得福

2007-04-25T01:34:00.000+08:00

nw i really noe wats 因祸得福. i cut my finger in e chiller today, i rched for my wallet to get my plaster then realised my wallet was gone. i left it in e toilet. i ran back n thank god it was still thr. phew.

frm e mail:
Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.

no wonder i notice my teeth are gettin whiter by day.

wah lau eh. few weeks ago, i didnt hv appetite to eat, i lost quite alot of weight. now, i bcome a total glutton! eat n eat, now so fat alrdy omfg. my appetite chng as fast as i chng my clothes sia. kns. mus cut down liao. si pui kia. hes gettin fatter too. eat n eat jus like me. gd la. gt cushion to lie on. haha.

him: my housemate's gf said u look like msian!
me: huh? how come?
him: duno leh. she jus asked if my gf's msian, i said local den she say u look like msian.

omfg!

new chef li jing: cindy, u'r msian?
me: no! im local!
she: oh i tot u'r msian.
me: how come?
she: u speak like one.

wtf?!

*hands ic to security guy, elmie*
elm: eh? all along i tot u'r msian. now u gime pink ic.

he see me in canteen also call me "hey msian!"
knns!!!!

*banquet guy, SiAnn hands ic to security*
me: eh? u last time msian ah. blue ic..
him: yah lor. same as u.
me: I PINK IC LA!

argh!!!!!!!!!!! i wana go long pia!

monday.

worked till late lor. stupid pie unbaked. work till almost 12am then leave. no bus alrdy so went yuan's place to stayovr. his bus till 1am. explored e neighbourhood n found 24hr coffeeshop n market. oh yah, OJ U STAY AMK ALSO RITE? haha. he stays ave8! days passes so fast, i cant rmb e details of each day. sigh. work work work. work's kinda frustating lately. for him & i. cus we workin same shift n things are always undone before the morn shift ppl leave. new colleagues comin in, takin their own sweet time to do their things n not helpin out. thank god we hv each othr for support. but im e one with lesser stress cus i dnt really chup if they help out anot. take things ez nia. i duno anythin, he teaches me. he needs a hand, im thr.

tuesday.

nth much. sway day lor. functions didnt go well, worked till 11.30pm then can go, high on manpower but low on productivity, him gettin v.pek chek, me kena starved till 8pm then can go for dinner.. sigh. work's like that. but i still prefer workin life to studying life. =D

damnit. gt cockroach somewhr on my table. duno hidin whr. i type also scared. haha. gtg to bed now. meetin him later. 12pm sia. means i gotta wake at 10.30am. wtf.

i love NRs!

2007-04-23T12:27:00.000+08:00

yes yes i love nightriders! hahaha. save alot on cabfare n can go out till late. x)

thursday.

i seriously dnt rmb whr was i on thurs. haha. i tink didnt go out ba cus wed night alrdy went out till late liao, thurs mus be guai. x)

friday.

wento citylink w/baby to shop before work. saw guan at marina sq workin. had carls jr for lunch b4 goin work.

afta work, out for movies! wanted to catch a movie at marina sq bt nth nice was on so we left for cineplex.

watched e korean movie, 200pounds beauty. nice show lor! =D

so many many movies comin up omfg. spiderman3, shrek3 in may, pirates in july! n the duno wat movie, blazin sth de, e guys who performed ice skating de, looks nice lor! i wana go catch it too. ooh n wild hogs!!! so many movies, so lil $. haha. nxt mth, low on drinks, high on ktv n movies! =D

walked ard afta e movie, walked all e way to istana, sat thr n chatted. he sang for me n i recorded it down lor. <3 tehehehe.5am+, thr was no more NR alrdy so we waited for the 6am bus to bt panj n had brkfast 2gthr. went home to slp n woke few hrs later for work. tired but fun filled day. =D

saturday.

afta so long, finally see lil kid aron at marina sq workin with guan. afta work, wento meet jane at boat quay with baby n tan. they laughed so hard that their stomached. i duno wats so funny la. baby & i were hvin ice fight, spittin ice at each othr, well, i strted it la. then i used terms like 'headshot', 'reload', 'double kill'.. they kept luffin n luffin. i duno y. funny meh? oh well, we left n tan went home, baby n i wento chat infrnt of ACM till 3am+ then took e NR home. waited for bus till 4am, by e time rch home alrdy 5am. sibeh tired sia.

sunday.

nth special. missed e last bus, took cab with tan. *heartache sia. wallet also ache.*

tan: "eh, ytd i heard ur fren tellin ur cousin that yuan's handsome."

but of cus. dnt doubt my taste. hahahahaha.

goin work now liao. adios ppl!

pics finally.

2007-04-19T04:28:00.000+08:00

yea, finally got pics to upload liao. so long nv upload pics liao.

monday.

went jb with serene, ping n her bf, i 4gt wats his name LOL! we took the public bus! omg was i excited. 1st time takin public bus in msia. haha. went bkk nv take bus leh, duno hw 2 take. i kept the bus tix! =D went for my 1st massage n im not gon go back agn. haha. hurts like mad n e person speaks in melayu la! hw 2 communicate sia. afta 1.5hrs of massage, we went for dinner, i had steak baked rice, it was good! =D went home afta dat to avoid the jam. 3 of them were msians so i had to go e sg passport checkpoint on my own. met another colleague thr! haha. wat coincidence!

serene went home while e 3 of us went parklane for pool then headed home afta dat. no shoppin at all. sians.

tuesday.

baby's offday. he came to fetch me home afta work but in e end decided to stayovr at his place to talk abt work related stuff. his roomate so funny la. wear eyemask thing to slp, argued with me(for fun la) sibeh funny la that monkey. we took bus to his place la, omg the bus was cool! bus service 162, advertising for my hp, 5300. its so fukin cool i tell ya.

so comfy! so vip!

baby gettin comfy too.

look hw cool e bus is! gt 2 special seats facin e window, has a small table n a pix of a bar infrnt of it. jus like sittin at e bar counter! how cool is that!?

yep. so we had cup noodles n talked n crapped till almost 5am lor.

wednesday.

wento work 2gthr n we had a v.busy day at work la. n i gt so pissed with e things im doin, i spent so much time doin it, still nv complete. later goin work earlier to complete it. damnit. went out afta work with baby, louis, yang n ah tan. geylang for fish head soup then snooker.

louis. =)

baby, louis, yangs.

came home afta snooker loh.

baby's gt v.nice handwriting!

for a cake order. usin choc, he cud write so nice lor!

he wrote my chinese name! nice loh. i always thought my handwriting's nice. nw i compare to his, knns i feel inferior.

off to bed now. gotta report to work early to finish up my shiat. nite!

ot, ot n more ot[s].

2007-04-16T02:16:00.000+08:00

hahaha. wats wrg with me today? i wore my tee inside out, didnt realise till i go toilet, chnged it, realised i wore it back on front! haha. cindy oh cindy.. tsk tsk. haha. luckily was at home la.

yea man, didnt blog for 5days. been so busy with work. ot, ot n more ot. very tired but had fun workin la. laughed alot these few days. cus got this big event, world gourmet summit thing or duno wat isit called la. gt things comin up n chefs frm france flyin in.

wednesday.

met up w/yuan for lunch at raffles city then off to work 2gthr. afta work, he sent me home n we chatted till 4am+ then go home sia.

thursday.

1st day of OT[s]. worked 11am till 11pm. very tired afta e late night chat but went bowling afta work anyways. the two french chefs were there too. i didnt bowl la. jus go lor cus yuan wanted to play. abt 10 of us were thr! so fun. stayed ovr at jane's place afta that. kena mozzie atk la! now evryday scratchin like monkey.

friday.

2nd day of OT[s]. 11am-11pm agn. by now, my eyes alrdy like panda liao, still, went esplanade with dearie n chat till 4am+ kena anothr round of mozzie atk. bobians, A+ blood la, gd grade blood. haha. rched home 5am liao lor! so tired.

saturday.

3rd day of OT[s]. 11am-11pm. big function. evrybody was SO BUSY. sunday got anothr big function too. two big functions in a row. can die. saturday function host was darryl david! rmb him? yea man, saw him in person. chef asked me go grab darryl's arse. haha si bian tai. worked till almost 12am then can go lor! stayed ovr at baby's place cus its nearer to workplace than mine. no nid tink so much la. we were dead beat afta slpin late for so many days. old alrdy. peggy asked if i wana go roger's but gotta work ot la & broke le.

sunday.

finally, last day of OT[s] but workin 9am-11pm la omfg. so tired nw lor. baby, cat & i all fell aslp in tv room for 1hr! we total took 1.5hrs for breaktime leh! our break was 45mins nia. haha. all overworked la. sibeh tired. baby sent me home afta work thou cud hardly open his tiny eyes. haha. <3 by e time we rch my place, almost 1am liao la. sibeh tired. n now hes oinkin away alrdy. im dozin off soon but mus blog dn evrythin 1st. my diary lehs~ this week's been crazy. so busy n tiring. e oni days i came home straight afta work was monday n today. e oni day i didnt go out was my offday tues. e rest of e days i wasnt a gd girl. i dnt evn rmb details of e week alrdy. so busy n tired.

offday later (monday) goin jb with colleagues! yay! so excited! meetin 11.30am but now almost 3.30am n im still up. sure sibeh tired de later.

nxt payday, loof, shanghai jazz & ktv-ing! gotta meet up with ooshies too!

and she said..

2007-04-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

biatch n deb, words frm our ji tui mgr to me on msn.

tomolo go n see then must fix appointment
tomolo just consultation see i mad not
i die dun cry leh
must be gd girl...dun flirt ard
i hope u fd a nice guy thou
if i foeget u dun blame me
my headcahe gt damn jia lak recently

hope evrythin turns out fine. suspected of brain cancer.

sibeh full.

2007-04-10T20:06:00.000+08:00

jus had dinner. mum cooked my fav chicken rice! :D

gary's new album got this song, the lyrics so cute n sweet la! 1st time i listen, i cudnt stop smiling!

你是我的宝贝

我　一直在寻找　可爱的微笑
今天终于让我找到
我　希望你知道　我不是开玩笑
今天才发现了你的好

你　有特别的味道　让我神魂颠倒
我想我一定是中了招
呜　美丽在燃烧　我快控制不了
Wu........................

其实我不错　可以考虑我
什么都可以 Just don't say no

我们手牵手　沙滩走一走
只要跟你在一起就足够

希望你能当我宝贝　你一定不会后悔
我只有一个要求　就　是要对你好

永远不让你流泪　永远都不让你心碎
希望你相信我　我们在一起好吗

yep. so sweet rite? nth much today. slp n slp nia. hehe. 2nite gon try to slp early. learn to slp early, cut down on drinks, late nights n cabs. pimples, dark rings.. sigh.. mayb chng of lifestyle will improve my concentration. always doin wrg things at work. tmd. called valiant that day, today he smsed me n asked if i got jobs intro him anot. HOGGIES AH, WHO GT JOB FOR HIM? WHO NEEDS A SERVANT AT HOME? HAHA.

disappointed.

2007-04-10T05:38:00.000+08:00

heard this on radio, e lyrics so sweet la!

从清晨露出微笑的金黄　我知道我不会再孤单
看你为我绽放的脸庞　放在心上　有了你我的世界不一样
童话里幸福终结了忧伤　你是我最靠近的坚强
有你陪我自在地遨翔抬头仰望　天空变成一座游乐场　世界更明亮

只因为你我情不自禁　闭上眼睛　心里想了想还是你
不让你离开我的手心　呵护着你　幻想着紧抱在我怀里
只因为你我情不自禁　这样为你　证明我不再孩子气
如果有一天我们老去　寸步不离　回忆里如镜子都是你

sunday.

wento meet guan & suporn they all at bpp at delifrance. emmulin was thr with her parents for dinner so i met her awhile n talked. she slimmed down so much! now shes boobless la! haha. intended to meet jane at clarke quay.

guan: whr u goin?
me: clarke quay.
guan: wah goin drink agn ah.
me: no la. today nun. dunwan drink.
guan: u sure anot.
me: yah la. if i drink, my hair all drop out ah!

initially i wanted to meet at marina sq since she wana watch movies, i cud meet yuan afta that too cus i was feelin kinda bad that he asked me out, i didnt wana go but i went out with othrs, its being unfair 2 him ma. so wanted to wait for him to knock off lor. but jane said clarke quay den ok lor. then, we chnged our plan to meet at raffles city. duno y la, chng location, chng here n thr, ended up at marina sq carls jr. haha.

chatted n waited till his knock off time. waited for him abt 30mins lor omfg. called tan n asked wt they doin upstairs, he said clearin e stores. so we waited lor. then finally they came out. he didnt see me cus he was darn tired, wana rush home liao n shortsighted like me, nv wear spects la. tan asked "u didnt see who's sittin thr?" den he saw jane, then walked nearer, saw me behind e pillar. he cudnt wipe that smile off his face sia. haha. yea man, it doesnt always require $ to make someone happy right shitty tien? well, its now honeymoon period la, evrythin will seem so nice n sweet la. duno hw long it will last.

we headed for esplanade thr, jane wanted to feel e breeze n relax. so much for relaxin! tan n yuan were blabbering in cantonese all e way la. i suggested to walk ovr to e merlion n so we did while tan went home. at e merlion, she didnt get to relax agn! yuan n i were makin noise all e way, she had to walk away frm us. haha poor her. went ovr to boat quay and I DRANK LA OMFG! MY HAIR'S GONNA FALL OFF! sang songs n played pool till closin time, went thai smile for supper then headed home.

oh yes, while waitin for e guys, louis saw me too.

louis: hey! u off today wat!
me: yah.
louis: oooooooooh!!!!! i noe i noe!!! hahahahaha!

today, he ran to me n asked, "so, did u went back ur OWN home to slp last night?"

hahahaha blardie hell!

monday.

his offday but he went dn marina sq so we, 2gthr with tan n edwin had dinner 2gthr at marina sq. today i was so disappointed with myself la. didnt do things right. burnt my fingers twice sumore. S.I.G.H! 1stly, i dropped a whole tray of cake, half tray gone, sumore its for function in e evening lor! then i calculated wrgly, supposed to put 3.6kg, i calculated 1.6kg, e item didnt turn out right n its for function on tues evening! i feel SO bad! goin catch some slp soon n if i can wake up on time, i'll go back make it agn. its my offday btw.

afta work, went shanghai jazz with jerome, boon, chef kenneth n tis guy frm panpac, ah chuan. boon's flyin later, 11am flight. omfg u all shud go check out shanghai jazz, jus beside raffles hotel, open 3rd mth. very posh la. if u like oosh, u'll like shanghai jazz. its cosy n its not hot like oosh, got aircon de lor! haha. ok la, gtg koon liao. ltr mus go back work free labour. i feel so bad sia.

oh yah, our v.chor lor baker made this sibeh cute bread for display..